this entry has been a long time coming...
well as everyones finishing their finals and getting ready to head home this place has an erie feeling surrounding it. i can't believe i just finished my first semester of college. well technically friday after 1pm i'll have finished it but yeah you get the point. so much has happened and changed and wow i dont even know where to start.
first of all, there's way more drama in college then there ever was in high school, at least for me. it could also be cuz we're all in a "real world" scenerio. 6 strangers, 3 girls and 3 guys you can imagine the drama there. i'm def looking foward to getting out of this place. hopefully a break will help me get my mind off of him, not that its really possible to stop thinking of him though.
"him" would be one of the only people that makes this place bearable and worth living at. he's one of the greatest people i've met since i've been here. he def helps make my day all the time. since he left tuesday it's been a hard few days. at least we left on a good note. i can't complain even though i continue to do so.
rachel is another one that keeps me sane here. she knows what im going through and listens to me bitch about actually being happy and havign shit go right for once. she's had to go through a lot this year and i'm glad i could be there to help see her through it. i dont know what i would do without our girl talks. we always pick the winners(sarcasm)
then my roommate daria. wow what a crazy little girl. she knows how to make all of us happy no matter what. she's absolutely insane. but i love her. she listens to me bitch, i listen to her bitch. we know whats up and we take turns trading off the room. haha.
the rest of them are all chill people when they want to be. we've all been getting a lot closer. i guess thats in part because i'm finally letting my guard down a little and trusting some more. not too much though. you can never be too careful. i guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.
as of right now i'm avoiding my mass communication theory text book and studying as a whole. there's only so much reading one can do in a night. i think my brain may be a tad overloaded. way too much coffee and cigarrettes. it's gunna be a long night. but as soon as i get through these two nights i'm done. done with this semester. then i get my month away. i hope it goes well. i already miss him so that probably won't change but i hope i have a good time with all my friends. i have like such a short break. i come back the 18th. or the 19th. whichever i prefer. actually depending on him and my roomie. haha. cuz there may have to be some adjustments made.
for now all i can do is wear these earrings and listen to our song and think of him. i just hope he's doing the same. i never thought i could miss someone this much. i guess i tend to surprise myself from time to time. this is gunna be a good month. im hoping for the best.
meg comes home friday. she'll be back before i get there. it'll be nice to see her. i got some pictures to share with her and stories to tell. matt and i have some catching up to do. he's missing a lot of details right now.
well, back to my communication theory book. at least for another hour. then sleep, then exam. wish me luck. see ya'll on the flipside.
"i hate everything about you" hah how i wish that was true.
xoxo
first of all, there's way more drama in college then there ever was in high school, at least for me. it could also be cuz we're all in a "real world" scenerio. 6 strangers, 3 girls and 3 guys you can imagine the drama there. i'm def looking foward to getting out of this place. hopefully a break will help me get my mind off of him, not that its really possible to stop thinking of him though.
"him" would be one of the only people that makes this place bearable and worth living at. he's one of the greatest people i've met since i've been here. he def helps make my day all the time. since he left tuesday it's been a hard few days. at least we left on a good note. i can't complain even though i continue to do so.
rachel is another one that keeps me sane here. she knows what im going through and listens to me bitch about actually being happy and havign shit go right for once. she's had to go through a lot this year and i'm glad i could be there to help see her through it. i dont know what i would do without our girl talks. we always pick the winners(sarcasm)
then my roommate daria. wow what a crazy little girl. she knows how to make all of us happy no matter what. she's absolutely insane. but i love her. she listens to me bitch, i listen to her bitch. we know whats up and we take turns trading off the room. haha.
the rest of them are all chill people when they want to be. we've all been getting a lot closer. i guess thats in part because i'm finally letting my guard down a little and trusting some more. not too much though. you can never be too careful. i guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.
as of right now i'm avoiding my mass communication theory text book and studying as a whole. there's only so much reading one can do in a night. i think my brain may be a tad overloaded. way too much coffee and cigarrettes. it's gunna be a long night. but as soon as i get through these two nights i'm done. done with this semester. then i get my month away. i hope it goes well. i already miss him so that probably won't change but i hope i have a good time with all my friends. i have like such a short break. i come back the 18th. or the 19th. whichever i prefer. actually depending on him and my roomie. haha. cuz there may have to be some adjustments made.
for now all i can do is wear these earrings and listen to our song and think of him. i just hope he's doing the same. i never thought i could miss someone this much. i guess i tend to surprise myself from time to time. this is gunna be a good month. im hoping for the best.
meg comes home friday. she'll be back before i get there. it'll be nice to see her. i got some pictures to share with her and stories to tell. matt and i have some catching up to do. he's missing a lot of details right now.
well, back to my communication theory book. at least for another hour. then sleep, then exam. wish me luck. see ya'll on the flipside.
"i hate everything about you" hah how i wish that was true.
xoxo