Sugar and chocolate.
I am finding my struggle with school getting harder and harder as the time passes by. At the end of the semester I'm always so positive I can do better next semester, but next semester comes around and I am doing the exact same, if not a bit worse, than the previous. It's really driving me mad, because I don't know the first thing about how to fix it. I know I'm not stupid, I know I can do it... but the thing is, I don't want to. I don't want to write this particular essay at this particular time. Give me a textbook, give me four months and I'll willingly write you four 20 page essays... but give me a textbook and a whole bunch of due dates and I'll give you nothing. That's how I work, and I hate it because I can't succeed in this world that way. I need to change, I need to accept due dates and learn to abide to them. But how? I've made myself do it for years, but I think I'm finally just fed up. When I try, I get so frustrated that I can't really concentrate and then it's pointless. It's a waste of my time to sit there for two hours trying to start on something and not being able to concentrate on it, therefore reading the same paragraph over and over again, or writing a paragraph in two hours. Ah, I really want to pack my bags and just leave. Start fresh somewhere. But then again, I want to do this whenever frustrations get a bit too much for me to handle.
Besides that, I was reading an article last night at work, and it was saying that sugar is an actual addiction. I knew that it's sort of addictive, but I didn't realize that it releases opioids which are neurotransmitters that activate the brain's pleasure receptors. Addictive drugs such as heroin and morphine target the same opioid receptors. This was studied on rats and they found that after 21 days of high sugar diets, a 12 hour set back of their high sugar diet made them go into withdrawal, showing signs of anxiety, teeth chattering and depression. I'd say thats pretty intense. Also, diet drinks are just as bad as normal pop. Sure, the calories aren't there, which is nice, but your stomach can't tell the difference between aspartame and sugar, so when you're drinking a can of diet pop, your stomach immediately activates the pleasure receptors and then anticipates more sugary stuff to come down there - which is why you might be tempted to go for that jar of Nutella after drinking a can of pop. Mmm... Nutella. Today however, shall be my first of 5 days of not eating sugar. Apparently that's the average amount of time it takes for a sugar addict to get over their addiction. I'll see, perhaps I'll update regularly for the next 5 days to track how I feel without sugar. I'm already not liking the sounds of "no sugar". Perhaps this calls for some gym to take my mind of chocolate?
Besides that, I was reading an article last night at work, and it was saying that sugar is an actual addiction. I knew that it's sort of addictive, but I didn't realize that it releases opioids which are neurotransmitters that activate the brain's pleasure receptors. Addictive drugs such as heroin and morphine target the same opioid receptors. This was studied on rats and they found that after 21 days of high sugar diets, a 12 hour set back of their high sugar diet made them go into withdrawal, showing signs of anxiety, teeth chattering and depression. I'd say thats pretty intense. Also, diet drinks are just as bad as normal pop. Sure, the calories aren't there, which is nice, but your stomach can't tell the difference between aspartame and sugar, so when you're drinking a can of diet pop, your stomach immediately activates the pleasure receptors and then anticipates more sugary stuff to come down there - which is why you might be tempted to go for that jar of Nutella after drinking a can of pop. Mmm... Nutella. Today however, shall be my first of 5 days of not eating sugar. Apparently that's the average amount of time it takes for a sugar addict to get over their addiction. I'll see, perhaps I'll update regularly for the next 5 days to track how I feel without sugar. I'm already not liking the sounds of "no sugar". Perhaps this calls for some gym to take my mind of chocolate?