I don't get it.
I'm miserable.
And I have no reason to be.
This has been an on-going trend though. I think it might be time to make a doctor's appointment and get back on Lexapro or something. I don't know. I've been comtemplating this for a while and as much as I don't want to go back to it, I'm tired of feeling like crap for no reason. And it sucks because I've actually got something going for me right now. I don't get it.
It's like... I have a great boyfriend, but still feel like a burden. I have a loving mother, but still feel like she ignores me. I finally reached my goal weight but still feel like a fatass, thus creating something similar to an eating disorder. I'm in shape but feel like I could do more. I have amazing friends, but don't feel like they care the same for me. And I'm busy all day but feel completely unproductive, and like I'm doing nothing.
Like I said, I just don't get it.
On a completely unrelated note, I had a monstrous black eye that just healed. And then I got hit again today, so lo and behold, I still have a black eye. At least this one isn't swollen shut.
School is annoying this semester. Even though I'm physically IN my classes, most of the work is all online. And my anthropology teacher is obnoxious. He talks through the slides so fast because he expects us to print the power point slides from the internet. And you know something... normally I would. But guess what... a week after the semester started, the one working printer in my house died. So needless to say, I've had to depend on the school library and pay 12 cents per page. It's ridiculous. A total waste of money in my opinion. But I can't do anything about it. It's not my fault the Goddamn printer decided to go out in the semester I would really need it.
And sadly, my geography class that I actually enjoy is mostly online. We have at least one weekly assignment online and it's just as obnoxious. I haven't had time to sit at a computer and just waste time in a long while. And frankly, the only reason I'm sitting in front of the computer right now is because I'm miserable and figured that bitching on livejournal might make me feel better. heh.
Ah well. Life will go on.
And I have no reason to be.
This has been an on-going trend though. I think it might be time to make a doctor's appointment and get back on Lexapro or something. I don't know. I've been comtemplating this for a while and as much as I don't want to go back to it, I'm tired of feeling like crap for no reason. And it sucks because I've actually got something going for me right now. I don't get it.
It's like... I have a great boyfriend, but still feel like a burden. I have a loving mother, but still feel like she ignores me. I finally reached my goal weight but still feel like a fatass, thus creating something similar to an eating disorder. I'm in shape but feel like I could do more. I have amazing friends, but don't feel like they care the same for me. And I'm busy all day but feel completely unproductive, and like I'm doing nothing.
Like I said, I just don't get it.
On a completely unrelated note, I had a monstrous black eye that just healed. And then I got hit again today, so lo and behold, I still have a black eye. At least this one isn't swollen shut.
School is annoying this semester. Even though I'm physically IN my classes, most of the work is all online. And my anthropology teacher is obnoxious. He talks through the slides so fast because he expects us to print the power point slides from the internet. And you know something... normally I would. But guess what... a week after the semester started, the one working printer in my house died. So needless to say, I've had to depend on the school library and pay 12 cents per page. It's ridiculous. A total waste of money in my opinion. But I can't do anything about it. It's not my fault the Goddamn printer decided to go out in the semester I would really need it.
And sadly, my geography class that I actually enjoy is mostly online. We have at least one weekly assignment online and it's just as obnoxious. I haven't had time to sit at a computer and just waste time in a long while. And frankly, the only reason I'm sitting in front of the computer right now is because I'm miserable and figured that bitching on livejournal might make me feel better. heh.
Ah well. Life will go on.