That indescribable feeling where you don't know exactly what's wrong with your life, but you know that something isn't right somehow is something I think pretty much everyone feels at some stage (Hell, just look at how many people claim they're having a Mid-Life Crisis!). Everyone wants to feel like they have a direction and are simultaneously their own free person, so whilst I'm not gonna pretend I understand everything about how you feel and your current situation, like some crappy bearded shrink with a clipboard, but I think I get the general gist of where you're coming from about feeling bogged down with life in general and thoughts in your head buzzing incessantly. I honestly don't know what I can say to help or encourage you, since this is obviously something very personal to you that you're finding difficult to express in words, but I want to do something at least, so here I go:
First of all, I'd definitely recommend talking this through with someone that you trust, face-to-face. Just getting all this out in the open seems like it would be very beneficial, as keeping it all pent-up inside of you with no outlet could well be what's causng a lot of your frustration. If there's someone out there like a friend or family member you feel can empathise with your feelings, offer you good advice without sugar-coating it and listen to you honestly then I'd strongly recommend talking it through with them. Sorting your ideas out with a second opinion that you trust would be good in that it lets you see things from another perspective (which, when you're feeling like everything's too much and you can't cope with it all, is very useful). Plus, everyone needs a shoulder to lean on at times - I know from how we've talked in the past that you've always been a very self-reliant person, but right now I think letting yourself open up to someone else would be good for you, so you can relieve some of your burden a little merely by having someone listen.
The only other thing I can think of is... well, it probably sounds a bit silly and corny, but put aside a set amount of time every week in which you can do whatever you want. It's up to you how much - maybe an hour or so on a weekend, maybe every day after work if you feel you can dedicate that much! - but however much time you give yourself, just do what you want in that time. If you want to relax and have a nap, do it! If you want to pig out on cake, then you've got cake! If you want to fit in some exercise, then go for it! I know there's no worse feeling than being unable to balance the stuff you enjoy simply 'cos you're so busy that your life gets taken over by endless things on your mind and stuff that you feel you 'have to do.' So yeah, making some time for yourself where you can just think, 'Screw everything else that's going on, this is my time damn it!' (which will indulge that urge to break the rules, heh!) can make a big difference and it gives you something to look forward to, which is always important.
Anyway, I hope this helped, at least a little - I'm no expert on this but I tried to think of it from how I would feel in your situation. Apologies if it came across as me spouting crappy new-age therapist talk at you at all as well; that wasn't my intention at all. Good luck with sorting things out and if you need someone to talk with this or anything else about, feel free to contact me.
Thank you very much for your insightful words. It's a funny thing you should mention speaking with someone that I trust, because that is precisely what I did the very next day when I had the opportunity. My friend helped me out a great deal by making things obvious and suggesting different methods of dealing with this kind of frustration when it gets the best of me. I've been feeling great since then. And, I also realize that I wrote this whole thing when I was driving myself crazy, which thankfully is no longer the case. Despite that, thanks a lot for sharing your thoughts on how to cure my emoness. :) Your suggestions are also ones I will keep in mind to avoid feeling like that again.
Anyway, thanks again! I am touched that you care. <333
First of all, I'd definitely recommend talking this through with someone that you trust, face-to-face. Just getting all this out in the open seems like it would be very beneficial, as keeping it all pent-up inside of you with no outlet could well be what's causng a lot of your frustration. If there's someone out there like a friend or family member you feel can empathise with your feelings, offer you good advice without sugar-coating it and listen to you honestly then I'd strongly recommend talking it through with them. Sorting your ideas out with a second opinion that you trust would be good in that it lets you see things from another perspective (which, when you're feeling like everything's too much and you can't cope with it all, is very useful). Plus, everyone needs a shoulder to lean on at times - I know from how we've talked in the past that you've always been a very self-reliant person, but right now I think letting yourself open up to someone else would be good for you, so you can relieve some of your burden a little merely by having someone listen.
The only other thing I can think of is... well, it probably sounds a bit silly and corny, but put aside a set amount of time every week in which you can do whatever you want. It's up to you how much - maybe an hour or so on a weekend, maybe every day after work if you feel you can dedicate that much! - but however much time you give yourself, just do what you want in that time. If you want to relax and have a nap, do it! If you want to pig out on cake, then you've got cake! If you want to fit in some exercise, then go for it! I know there's no worse feeling than being unable to balance the stuff you enjoy simply 'cos you're so busy that your life gets taken over by endless things on your mind and stuff that you feel you 'have to do.' So yeah, making some time for yourself where you can just think, 'Screw everything else that's going on, this is my time damn it!' (which will indulge that urge to break the rules, heh!) can make a big difference and it gives you something to look forward to, which is always important.
Anyway, I hope this helped, at least a little - I'm no expert on this but I tried to think of it from how I would feel in your situation. Apologies if it came across as me spouting crappy new-age therapist talk at you at all as well; that wasn't my intention at all. Good luck with sorting things out and if you need someone to talk with this or anything else about, feel free to contact me.
Take care,
From SourGapes101.
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Thank you very much for your insightful words. It's a funny thing you should mention speaking with someone that I trust, because that is precisely what I did the very next day when I had the opportunity. My friend helped me out a great deal by making things obvious and suggesting different methods of dealing with this kind of frustration when it gets the best of me. I've been feeling great since then. And, I also realize that I wrote this whole thing when I was driving myself crazy, which thankfully is no longer the case. Despite that, thanks a lot for sharing your thoughts on how to cure my emoness. :) Your suggestions are also ones I will keep in mind to avoid feeling like that again.
Anyway, thanks again! I am touched that you care. <333
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