well lets be honest, it is a pity party of sorts, but who says they arent okay? pull up, grab a seat, have a drink, .... heh*
our correspondence always makes me feel less alone. its always oddly comforting to realize that even though we've never even seen eachother that much, somehow we always manage to have parallel lives. you remember paul abruzzo? me and him are the same way. ill call him up, and what do you know? we're in the same freakin boat... going up shit creek.... and all the paddles are gone.
also i dont know if i ever commented, but i did read your post about your study abroad experience. i found that intensely interesting, and amazing. im so happy for you that you did that, although it seemed pretty traumatic at times.
do you ever find yourself avoiding people, or their gazes, and if you do catch someone's gaze, you look away all to quickly, and youre not really sure why? if the eyes are really the windows to the soul, then...
do you have a deviant art page? ide really like to see your art! how did the highschool switch hurt your social life?
i definitly know how you feel about the vulnerability thing too, like i feel that if i become friends with someone, that ill just end up being misunderstood or left behind or hurt. that happened to me last year. i was friends with this girl named Ashley too, and we were inseparable. we were known as the "ashleys" (even though my name is spelled ashleigh), or ashley squared. she was one of the best friends i have ever had. we clicked. one of the things i loved.. and maybe this is narcissistic of me, but she thought i was funny! noone ever laughs at my jokes except for me! i actually made her laugh, like all the time. and she was one of the first girl friends that i was completely honest and myself with. and she wasnt intimidated by me. and she made me laugh, and she was there for me when szymon and i broke up. closer than close.
but then...she got this boyfriend... and i was left in the dust. and now we're practically enemies. and i cant stand her. anyyyywho.
well, good luck with your art! im rooting for you from far away! and omg youre so creepy geeze! who do you think you are giving such a thoughtful reply to my public rantings?! god!'
haha, well hopefully talk to you later <3 take care
our correspondence always makes me feel less alone. its always oddly comforting to realize that even though we've never even seen eachother that much, somehow we always manage to have parallel lives. you remember paul abruzzo? me and him are the same way. ill call him up, and what do you know? we're in the same freakin boat... going up shit creek.... and all the paddles are gone.
also i dont know if i ever commented, but i did read your post about your study abroad experience. i found that intensely interesting, and amazing. im so happy for you that you did that, although it seemed pretty traumatic at times.
do you ever find yourself avoiding people, or their gazes, and if you do catch someone's gaze, you look away all to quickly, and youre not really sure why? if the eyes are really the windows to the soul, then...
do you have a deviant art page? ide really like to see your art!
how did the highschool switch hurt your social life?
i definitly know how you feel about the vulnerability thing too, like i feel that if i become friends with someone, that ill just end up being misunderstood or left behind or hurt. that happened to me last year. i was friends with this girl named Ashley too, and we were inseparable. we were known as the "ashleys" (even though my name is spelled ashleigh), or ashley squared. she was one of the best friends i have ever had. we clicked. one of the things i loved.. and maybe this is narcissistic of me, but she thought i was funny! noone ever laughs at my jokes except for me! i actually made her laugh, like all the time. and she was one of the first girl friends that i was completely honest and myself with. and she wasnt intimidated by me. and she made me laugh, and she was there for me when szymon and i broke up. closer than close.
but then...she got this boyfriend... and i was left in the dust. and now we're practically enemies. and i cant stand her. anyyyywho.
well, good luck with your art! im rooting for you from far away!
and omg youre so creepy geeze! who do you think you are giving such a thoughtful reply to my public rantings?! god!'
haha, well hopefully talk to you later <3
take care
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