durderduer
so when did boys start using the phrase "prolly"? it freaks me out because it's a little ridiculous, but it is so hot. really it is. everytime i hear "prolly" come out of a boys mouth i'm pretty sure it's the most adorable thing i've ever seen (or heard) and i wanna take em home! speaking of which i really need to get on that.
in other news the fung shui was just right to give that other guy a call to try and clear up some feelings of extreme hatred. we are meeting for coffee at 4ish today, after a little bit of stupidness only detected by me. yeah... i'm not going to go though. i'm not ready... i have so much i want to tell him but i can envision how he will respond and if he acts how he normally does there is no point in telling him everything i feel cuz he will be him about it. and not care. but i want him to care. i want closure and i will never get it unless he attempts to understand my side of everything. i don't want to cry. i don't want to hate him forever. i just don't want to see him at all right now. don't know how to handle the situation no plans are coming to mind either. i don't know, i can't let it go and i'm wondering if i should. but here is my beef;
he is a horrible friend
he judges me w/o knowing/factoring in shit i go through
he doesn't care about anything
he will not allow himself to open up
he never understands anyone elses' point about anything
he thinks i am dumb
should i even try to deal w/ that or just leave it alone? blah.
in other news the fung shui was just right to give that other guy a call to try and clear up some feelings of extreme hatred. we are meeting for coffee at 4ish today, after a little bit of stupidness only detected by me. yeah... i'm not going to go though. i'm not ready... i have so much i want to tell him but i can envision how he will respond and if he acts how he normally does there is no point in telling him everything i feel cuz he will be him about it. and not care. but i want him to care. i want closure and i will never get it unless he attempts to understand my side of everything. i don't want to cry. i don't want to hate him forever. i just don't want to see him at all right now. don't know how to handle the situation no plans are coming to mind either. i don't know, i can't let it go and i'm wondering if i should. but here is my beef;
he is a horrible friend
he judges me w/o knowing/factoring in shit i go through
he doesn't care about anything
he will not allow himself to open up
he never understands anyone elses' point about anything
he thinks i am dumb
should i even try to deal w/ that or just leave it alone? blah.