wow...
so damn much has happened in the past few days. much more than i thought i could take. but now all the drama has come to an end and i cant believe its gonna be gone. no more drama. like this anyways. heather is back. i missed her. wanna know the funny thing... she never even went anywhere. just all last week and weekend... she had a sorta hate for me.. not exactly hate but dislike... bc i did something fucked up to her. she hooked up with blake in the beginning of the summer time. and then she left for key west. but before she left they stopped hooking up. and he didnt exactly like her anymore. and then we started hanging out and started to like eachother. and we ended up kissing a few times. and rachel was there and saw it. but told me not to tell her because it would hurt her and that sometimes what people dont know wont hurt them. so i never told. but came close to it so many times. anywho... last week rachel decides to tell heather. long story short i lost my best friend for like 5 days... and cried everyday since then. and thought that nothing i could do would change any of it. it was horrible. and i had to stop talking to blake because heather kinda threatened me too. and i honestly miss him. it sucks. but things are fine now. after all the cold words she said to me... i still love her like... more than i did before....
on a much sadder note... aunt crystal passed away two days ago. i cant believe it. its like.. for a while. things just kept getting so much worse. and i couldnt control any of it. NONE of it. i didnt even get to talk to her before she passed. man. wtf. why does this happen. she was one of the best people i knew. she didnt deserve this. at all. she suffered for so long.... UGH!!!!!!!!! i just want to scream and cry. but none of it i know will help. although i cant seem to hold back the tears. at all. tommarrow me and my brother are driving to mississippi to go to the funeral. were missing thursday of school and driving back thursday afterwards.
i cant wait til this weekend though. buckmasters. with jesica.my brothers going too. and so is candice. and shelley and whoever else wants to go i guess. i gotta see how things are going to work out. but hopefully for the best. heather has to go to LA this weekend. damnit! if she didnt. i think id prally stay here and hang out with her. it seems like i havent gotten to hang out with her in a long time.
i get to see my mom tommarrow too. since i havent seen her since the first day of the last visit that i had to west palm.
i got to talk to magda yesterday!! i love her and miss her so oooo much! it was so nice to talk to her. shes the only friend i have left in west palm. well i mean like best friend. no i take that back. lindsey! i miss her a lot too! me and heather and adam are going to UCF the weekend before heathers 18th birthday! and are meeting magda there! hopefully ill get to see lindsey! and kc and adam asher and even austin! they all go there! how cool is that! YES!!!
anyways i need to get going so i can finish my english homework and take a shower. julie made some country cds for adam so thats what im listening to. their so good. ..
just a quick note. i was informed that a few people in west palm think ive changed since i lived here... it doesnt mean ive changed since i moved to destin. ill always be the SAME person. if u really knew me then ud know im better than all that. it doesnt mean ive changed it means ive grown up. this is written to a few people that i saw at warped tour.
on a much sadder note... aunt crystal passed away two days ago. i cant believe it. its like.. for a while. things just kept getting so much worse. and i couldnt control any of it. NONE of it. i didnt even get to talk to her before she passed. man. wtf. why does this happen. she was one of the best people i knew. she didnt deserve this. at all. she suffered for so long.... UGH!!!!!!!!! i just want to scream and cry. but none of it i know will help. although i cant seem to hold back the tears. at all. tommarrow me and my brother are driving to mississippi to go to the funeral. were missing thursday of school and driving back thursday afterwards.
i cant wait til this weekend though. buckmasters. with jesica.my brothers going too. and so is candice. and shelley and whoever else wants to go i guess. i gotta see how things are going to work out. but hopefully for the best. heather has to go to LA this weekend. damnit! if she didnt. i think id prally stay here and hang out with her. it seems like i havent gotten to hang out with her in a long time.
i get to see my mom tommarrow too. since i havent seen her since the first day of the last visit that i had to west palm.
i got to talk to magda yesterday!! i love her and miss her so oooo much! it was so nice to talk to her. shes the only friend i have left in west palm. well i mean like best friend. no i take that back. lindsey! i miss her a lot too! me and heather and adam are going to UCF the weekend before heathers 18th birthday! and are meeting magda there! hopefully ill get to see lindsey! and kc and adam asher and even austin! they all go there! how cool is that! YES!!!
anyways i need to get going so i can finish my english homework and take a shower. julie made some country cds for adam so thats what im listening to. their so good. ..
just a quick note. i was informed that a few people in west palm think ive changed since i lived here... it doesnt mean ive changed since i moved to destin. ill always be the SAME person. if u really knew me then ud know im better than all that. it doesnt mean ive changed it means ive grown up. this is written to a few people that i saw at warped tour.