bruised and broken...
well. tonite. intresting. i finally get ungrounded and i get re grounded like a dumbass.... wtf am i so stupid. i swear. i must have like no commmon sense or something. i had a good realization tonite. i realized... why the heck should i be getting mad at my dad for caring? hes only grounding me bc he cares and is looking out for me. trying to find a way he can save me from everything. hes doing his best yanno. and i like dont give either parent enough credit. they dont deserve all this shit that i am putting them through. its my fault... so why should i get mad at them for caring? if they didnt care.. they wouldnt punish or ground me yanno. i just realized that i do a lot of dumb crap. and i need to learn to appreciate what i am given a lot more than i do. theres a lot of people in this world that have it worse off than me! i wish i could just go back.. to the beginning and start over. and change a few things.. like in that movie the butterfly effect.... but all i can do is worry about the mistakes im NOT going to make in the future. its about time. i wonder why it took me so long to come to a realization of all this.... prally just because i didnt want to admit my dad was right.... bc i never thought he was. but hes justified in everything hes done. good nite