God, I feel like slitting my wrists
Have you ever had an epiphany?
That's where you realize something all of a sudden, something deep and
meaningful, just right out of the blue.
I've had an epiphany right now, and I think here, out in cyber-space,
where no one has to read unless they care, is a really great place to
share it. Here goes.
- I am not happy with my life how it is, and I don't see anyway how
it's going to get better -
I have nothing I'm looking forward too. Yeah, I want to be a chef ,
wheee.. For the past couple of weeks, I just don't seem to be caring
about cooking anymore. I've just seemed to stop caring.
Same with sex life. Beautiful person walks by me, and I don't even
notice it anymore. I've just seemed to stop caring.
I'm eighteen, I still live with my parents, I've purposely sprained an
ankle , because the pain was so much more bearable then the tedium of
my job.
The one thing I do care about , my pet cat , is probably going to be
leaving soon, because my dad has decided, after six months of living
with her, ' he doesn't like it' .
My relationship with my five month girlfriend is going down the
crapper. I refuse to speak to her when she calls now.
And now I'm getting back into cutting myself. I don't see how this can
get any better.