RAGE! On the INTERNET! You CARE!
I am... so frustrated right now. I've had three separate attacks of gout in the last two weeks, two bad enough to make me miss work and effectively immobilze me.
I can deal with the pain, I know it won't last. What makes me shake is the feeling of complete helplessness I have now. I can't predict when this'll hit. The meds I have shorten the length of the attacks but they can't stop them altogether. Which means no matter what I do or how good I am at my job, I can't be relied upon. No matter how much your boss says "It's okay, we'll deal with it when it comes" every time this happens I'm putting them on the spot.
I hate not having control like this. I have more control over my depression than this, and I barely keep that in check sometimes. It's infuriating. GARGH.
I can deal with the pain, I know it won't last. What makes me shake is the feeling of complete helplessness I have now. I can't predict when this'll hit. The meds I have shorten the length of the attacks but they can't stop them altogether. Which means no matter what I do or how good I am at my job, I can't be relied upon. No matter how much your boss says "It's okay, we'll deal with it when it comes" every time this happens I'm putting them on the spot.
I hate not having control like this. I have more control over my depression than this, and I barely keep that in check sometimes. It's infuriating. GARGH.