Oh, Tony
I have a dentist appointment Monday, I'm driving up to Tacoma tomorrow. I should be sleeping, but there's the usual problem with it, then last night I couldn't sleep at all because my nerves were having a party, pulsing through me, causing me to writhe and toss in endless discomfort. I took a muscle relaxer instead of the neurontin. GEE GEE.
So I took a neurontin in the morning. I went to take a bath not long after, and it hit me and I had to carefully pull myself out, wrapped in a towel and some plaid and faceplanted on the bed in the sunroom awhile, knowing the sun would eventually tell me "stop fucking around and get out of this room" so I moved to another room that was cooler, and continued my rest. I'm sorry for all the things I missed out on.
I'm going to have to let go of some things, because of recovery and my general health issues, I can no longer make certain promises, because I'm not sure if I can keep them.
I did a fairy oracle reading for myself, and it basically told me, I have to stop visiting Tony, which I've known. It's just...well, hard to say no. But I'm done now. Perhaps later on, not that I should be making rationalizations for the future. Something about problem solving, and one last answer to my main question, which gives me hope. Max's current issues brought it home to me. We've been patient with each other and the space.
It hasn't been easy, but not that difficult, because I can put it out of my mind like everything else that bothers me. Time is almost up, and now it's finally time to be rewarded for our patience. I look forward to it.
So I took a neurontin in the morning. I went to take a bath not long after, and it hit me and I had to carefully pull myself out, wrapped in a towel and some plaid and faceplanted on the bed in the sunroom awhile, knowing the sun would eventually tell me "stop fucking around and get out of this room" so I moved to another room that was cooler, and continued my rest. I'm sorry for all the things I missed out on.
I'm going to have to let go of some things, because of recovery and my general health issues, I can no longer make certain promises, because I'm not sure if I can keep them.
I did a fairy oracle reading for myself, and it basically told me, I have to stop visiting Tony, which I've known. It's just...well, hard to say no. But I'm done now. Perhaps later on, not that I should be making rationalizations for the future. Something about problem solving, and one last answer to my main question, which gives me hope. Max's current issues brought it home to me. We've been patient with each other and the space.
It hasn't been easy, but not that difficult, because I can put it out of my mind like everything else that bothers me. Time is almost up, and now it's finally time to be rewarded for our patience. I look forward to it.