Me, Myself, and I
So today went pretty good. Didn't do to much, although I should have, like English homework...hmm, hopefully that will get done sometimes before monday. My friend Alissa was suppose to come home this weekend, She goes to college at PBA is west palm, but something came up, and she didn't coem home, so my plans of hanging out with her went down teh drain, kind of disappointed, but I understand. My other girlfriends were either spending time with their boyfriends or working, which I can understand all that too, so i had dinner with my parents and then went to the mall. Some think it's weird to go alone, but I really actually enjoy b/c I can just think, and suffice my needs, not those of the person/people I'm with. I've never felt alone, when shopping alone, but today I kind of did, and it was odd. When people looked at me I felt liek they were judging me like ooo " look at the poor lonely/single/loser girl at the mall all alone." There was a bunch of teeny bopper groups hanging around and couples, and what not. I my self didn't feel alone, but to everyone else I feel I must have looked alone. So I guess at teh end of it all, I did end up kind of feelign alone, which I don't liek and am definately not use to, not that I plan on getting use to it, but it's just all very odd, I dont like this feeling. My mom even thought it was kind of weird that i was going ALL alone, but if she came Id want her to drive, and shes sick so she'd want me to drive, but i don't liek drivign with ehr in the car b/c she makes me nervous and makes me drive weird. But tonight wasn't a total bust, I had a good time, with myslef, for the most part. i really feel like somethign big is going to happen this year. Already we're graduating, goign to college. i'm soon going to fulfill the independence I've been longing for. Living on my own, making my own schedule, deciding what types of vegetables I want to eat, lol. Things are changing, big time.