depression cycle complete
At least I think it is... I got to spend some time alone and be sad - and not feel as though I had to be strong or put on a happy face for the world and apologize for my loses. I think I finally got a few moments to grieve. I realized that (with my incredible sense of self sufficiency) I have created an environment where I don't need help (even if I do) and those around me would never think to offer up support because I'm the strong one. Way to shoot myself in the foot. Anyway, I feel better. We'll see if it sticks.
I have a number interesting work opportunities on the horizon. One would involve a trip to NYC. Amazingly, they all pay well and could keep me entertained for a few years.
The house has been my therapy the last two months. Things accomplished:
-Installed recessed lighting on a dimmer switch in the living room
-Installed Marmoleum flooring in the bathroom
-Rebuilt rototiller engine
-Removed 80% or the evil arbovitae
-Drafted plans for a greenhouse
-Demoed old shed and salvaged wood
-Drafted plans for new shed
-Refinished my bow-front dresser
-Made art twice
-Painted a mural on the bedroom wall
-Painted a naked lady for the living room... but she isn't going to live there
Things to do this weekend and next:
-Dig a big hole for the 150 gallon pond
-Plant my fancy pants willows (26) that arrived today from Canada. They are so pretty and they sent me extras!
-Order seeds
-Mark locations of rogue bulbs that are popping up all over the place for relocation. So far I have found tulips, hyacinth, and crocus.
-Finish raking and mow
-Clean the shop
-Maybe order lumber for shed... maybe
I have a number interesting work opportunities on the horizon. One would involve a trip to NYC. Amazingly, they all pay well and could keep me entertained for a few years.
The house has been my therapy the last two months. Things accomplished:
-Installed recessed lighting on a dimmer switch in the living room
-Installed Marmoleum flooring in the bathroom
-Rebuilt rototiller engine
-Removed 80% or the evil arbovitae
-Drafted plans for a greenhouse
-Demoed old shed and salvaged wood
-Drafted plans for new shed
-Refinished my bow-front dresser
-Made art twice
-Painted a mural on the bedroom wall
-Painted a naked lady for the living room... but she isn't going to live there
Things to do this weekend and next:
-Dig a big hole for the 150 gallon pond
-Plant my fancy pants willows (26) that arrived today from Canada. They are so pretty and they sent me extras!
-Order seeds
-Mark locations of rogue bulbs that are popping up all over the place for relocation. So far I have found tulips, hyacinth, and crocus.
-Finish raking and mow
-Clean the shop
-Maybe order lumber for shed... maybe