what's the opposite of a crescendo?

[perk_job]

what i want to know is
if you cant tell someone exactly how you feel, if you think you cant do what's best for you without feeling like youre inconveniencing someone else-
is that really friendship?
or does that kind of freedom come only with best friends and husbands
or maybe with no one at all?

tonight was not half the night i wanted it to be.

i cant even put the truth in here. maybe i do need to just leave the country for awhile.

but i still dont want to be anywhere else but here.

c ya.