FST: Wayfarers [Harry/Draco]
Medium: Books & Movies
Fandom: Harry Potter
Subject: Harry/Draco
Title: Wayfarers
Warnings: No spoilers.
Notes: I've attempted a mixfic once before, so I thought I'd try my hand in this fandom. Photography used and altered for the covers is mine.
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01. (Can't Get My) Head Around You -- The Offspring
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Lettin' you inside isn't right, don't mess with me
I never really know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Covering it up like a cut with the likes of me
You know I've really tried, I can't do anymore about you
You've aggravated, harrassed, and generally obsessed over one another for years. Naturally, you still don't understand each other in the slightest - which only serves to make the both of you even more irritated with each other.
02. Enemy -- Eve 6
The autumn sun burning logic in my brain
I'm asking why there is pleasure when there is pain
I'm here to pay for my mistakes in a humiliating manner
If there is a next time, I'll cover up
I feel alone, I feel shaky and uncertain
A kind man shakes my hand and draws the curtain
In a word he saves my life, then I exit out the enter door and smile
I took a ride to meet the enemy
I faced a fear of mine and shivered but didn't blink
I took a ride to meet the enemy to end all the madness
And now I know that I'll be fine
But sometimes, if you push and pull and press and make a general nuisance of yourself for long enough, something is bound to break. Or change. Same difference, really.
03. Mine -- Savage Garden
A hand brushes by my love
A smile fuels a steel inferno
You don't have to die to leave my world
Stand still and you've departed
It seems I'm not on your mind and I'm just wasting my time
I'm just a fool to believe
In the death of the night can you feel me inside?
I wish that you could conceive
Just a twist in time, and you could be mine
Just a sip of wine, and you could be mine
Just a kiss devine, and you could be mine
Won't you leave me in the darkness?
Take away the pride, all the dignity that's burning inside
Can't you see I'm standing naked?
I'll bear all the crosses and the crucifixes you can provide
Naturally, change often (if not always) leads to new problems. Sometimes extremely awkward problems. You know the kind - the problems that keep you up, tossing and turning at night, wondering if you've finally cracked for wanting the one thing you absolutely know you shouldn't.
04. Twisted Logic -- Coldplay
Sunlight opened up my eyes
To see for the first time
It opened them up
Don't fight for the wrong side
Say what you feel like
Say how you feel
You'll go backwards, but then
You'll go forwards, again
And eventually you realize that you absolutely must have cracked, because otherwise the words spilling unbidden out of your mouth wouldn't be there making you feel like the biggest fool to live, and all you can hope for is that either he'll respond in kind or be quick about punching you out.
05. Tangled Up In Me -- Skye Sweetnam
Could you see I want you by the way I push you away
Yeah, don't judge me tomorrow
By the way I'm actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reactions, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me
You wanna know more, more, more, about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see
But, of course, he's got a reputation to live up to - that of Biggest Prat Ever. Which translates into him hinting that he's interested only to push you aside and ignore you until he's good and ready to play nice again, and so the cycle goes, and with it what you assume to be your last shred of sanity.
06. Tainted Love -- Marilyn Manson
Sometimes I feel I've got to run away
I've got to get away
From the pain you drive in the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I've lost my light
For I toss and turn, I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
His stupidly annoying mind games are almost enough to make you question just what it is that you see in him, and you keep thinking that maybe it would have been better never to have started this whole ridiculous affair. That maybe you should just give up and say to hell with it all, because honestly, he is a complete pain in the arse.
07. Poison -- Alice Cooper
I wanna love you, but I better not touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, and I don't wanna break these chains
I hear you calling and it's needles and pins
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you, but you're under my skin
I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
I don't wanna break these chains, poison
Burning deep inside my veins
...But, as much of a pain he is, he's yours. Yours to obsess over, to bitch and complain about, to try to get under his skin just as deep as he is under yours and never let him go. You think that maybe you're just masochistic, but that doesn't keep you from wanting him and wanting him to want you, need you, just as much as you need him.
08. Cast No Shadow -- Oasis
Here's a thought for every man
Who tries to understand what is in his hand
He walks along the open road of love and life
Surviving if he can
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to stay
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
As he faced the sun he cast no shadow
As they took his soul they stole his pride
As he faced the sun he cast no shadow
And even though he may be a pain, there is one unflappable truth that pushes you onward - that he grounds you, makes you feel real and alive. He may mock your status as the designated saviour of the world, but in the end, he sees you as just another boy, someone worthy of his attention; some twisted sort of equal. And that makes all the difference for you.
09. Hometown -- Akira Yamaoka
He spoke of tortured souls
So outrageous the toll
You could lose all you have
He refused to give in to the town that takes all
Survive
You must have the will
This movie doesn't end the way we want all the time
Then he shouts at the moon,
"She's gone!"
And fear has overcome
He was walking the mile
He was walking alone
Some part of you also knows that your attention, your unstated equivolence makes all the difference to him as well. He's spent most of his life learning, accepting one truth, only to have it turned on him and have his world turned upside down, leaving him with nothing but the need to survive. But your constant presence makes his life something more than simple survival.
10. Silent Lucidity -- Queensryche
If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down; a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize your dream's alive
You can be the guide
But I will be watching over you
I am gonna help to see you through
I will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you
Eventually, there comes a chink in his defences, and something in him decides to let go and give in to that which you both have been wanting for what seems so long, and for the first time, you truly feel at ease with the world as all its problems disappear between those brief moments of happiness.
11. The One I Love -- The Rasmus
Haven't slept in a week
My bed has become my coffin
Cannot breathe, cannot speak
My head's like a bomb, still waiting
Take my heart and take my soul
I don't need them anymore
The one I love is striking me down on my knees
The one I love drowing me in my dreams
The one I love over and over again
Dragging me under
Hypnotized by the night
Silently rising beside me
Emptiness, nothingness
Is burning a hole inside me
Take my faith and take my pride
I don't need them anymore
But of course those problems can't disappear forever. In those moments, you'd forgotten who it was you were with, his fickle attitudes and all the more aggravating aspects of his personality. Or perhaps you just wanted to believe that they would disappear once you were together... and that presumption cost you dearly.
12. Wasted Time (S-Mix) -- Fuel
Say it to my face
Look me in the eyes
And say what you have to say
You know we can't erase
These words before they bind
And turn the final page
Ah, here comes alone again
Cause everything's broken
Everything's vacant
Everything's wasted time again
Sentiments, hopeless
Innocence, jaded
Everything's wasted time again
Someday we might find
Some sacred place in time
But until then
All will share
Our dreams we left behind
The brevity of your happiness is enough to make you wail and curse the heavens, but all you manage to find the energy for is to question if all of the aggravation was worth it for the happier moments. But you don't know the answers, because they depend on his answers, and he isn't telling you a damn thing.
13. Another Hole In The Head -- Nickelback
I'm through thinking of things to say to you
It's true, I've said enough and so have you
Just drive, you slam the door and so do I
Tongue-tied from all the little things
And they're the reason that I scream
I needed you
Probably as bad as I need another hole in the head
Cause I needed you
Car keys in your hand I believe that you would leave me for dead
It's at that point that you revert to your old defence mechanisms, and the anger filters into your system, hot and fierce as ever. What the hell were you thinking? Of course he's like this; always has been, always will be. You really must be a masochistic bastard. It's the only explanation that makes any sense, because making sense is something that doesn't easily fit into the interaction between you two.
14. Through With You -- Maroon 5
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause everytime you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think that you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all
Heartache, heartache, I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
And it just figures that at this point, once he's gotten you truly riled up, he decides to come waltzing back, acting as though everything is right as rain, as though this is just another of your normal tiffs. Maybe it is. But that would mean you were wrong about something along the line, and you just can't handle that right now, so you push him away. It's the only way you know how to deal with him.
15. Hole In The World -- The Eagles
They say that anger is just love disappointed
They say that love is just a state of mind
But all this fighting over who is anointed
Oh how can people be so blind
There’s a hole in the world tonight
There’s a cloud of fear and sorrow
There’s a hole in the world tonight
Don’t let there be a hole in the world tomorrow
But... there's something different this time. He doesn't bait you, doesn't rise to your tempter. For once, he's lost for a reaction, and that unsettles you more than anything. Before you know it, a quiet, unruffled corner of your mind is whispering, wishing everything could go back to how it was, during the good times.
16. Shameless -- Billy Joel
And I'm changin'
Swore I'd never compromise
But you convinced me otherwise
I'll do anything you please
You see in all my life, I've never found
What I couldn't resist, what I couldn't turn down
I could walk away from anyone I ever knew
But I can't walk away from you
I have never let anything have this much control over me
I worked too hard to call my life my own
I made myself a world, and it worked so perfectly
But it's your world now, I can't refuse
I've never had so much to lose
But before you can even think to apologise for something you don't remember doing, he amazes you again by beating you to it. Him, apologising. For something he didn't think was out of the ordinary. And that's when you realize this means more to him than he's ever let on before. For all his posturing and whinging, he's let you glimpse through that mask he depends so heavily on, and you can't help but feel luckier than you ever thought possible.
17. Good Enough -- Evanescence
Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you
Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel good enough
I feel good enough for you
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough
And he takes you back, or you take him back, but it doesn't matter who takes whom back because you're together again and that's all that matters. In one undefinable moment, you understand that no matter how much you drive each other crazy, you still need one another, that it's what you need to make everything real.
18. The Wayfarer -- Nightwish
Wayfarer, heartlander
What if I only had
One more night to live?
Home is where the way is
My road goes on forever
One more voyage to go
And if that's your reality, even if the heat and passion of it all sends the both of you up in spectacular flames by the end, it's still yours, and that's all that matters.
Fandom: Harry Potter
Subject: Harry/Draco
Title: Wayfarers
Warnings: No spoilers.
Notes: I've attempted a mixfic once before, so I thought I'd try my hand in this fandom. Photography used and altered for the covers is mine.
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01. (Can't Get My) Head Around You -- The Offspring
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Lettin' you inside isn't right, don't mess with me
I never really know what's really going on inside you
I can't get my head around you
Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Covering it up like a cut with the likes of me
You know I've really tried, I can't do anymore about you
You've aggravated, harrassed, and generally obsessed over one another for years. Naturally, you still don't understand each other in the slightest - which only serves to make the both of you even more irritated with each other.
02. Enemy -- Eve 6
The autumn sun burning logic in my brain
I'm asking why there is pleasure when there is pain
I'm here to pay for my mistakes in a humiliating manner
If there is a next time, I'll cover up
I feel alone, I feel shaky and uncertain
A kind man shakes my hand and draws the curtain
In a word he saves my life, then I exit out the enter door and smile
I took a ride to meet the enemy
I faced a fear of mine and shivered but didn't blink
I took a ride to meet the enemy to end all the madness
And now I know that I'll be fine
But sometimes, if you push and pull and press and make a general nuisance of yourself for long enough, something is bound to break. Or change. Same difference, really.
03. Mine -- Savage Garden
A hand brushes by my love
A smile fuels a steel inferno
You don't have to die to leave my world
Stand still and you've departed
It seems I'm not on your mind and I'm just wasting my time
I'm just a fool to believe
In the death of the night can you feel me inside?
I wish that you could conceive
Just a twist in time, and you could be mine
Just a sip of wine, and you could be mine
Just a kiss devine, and you could be mine
Won't you leave me in the darkness?
Take away the pride, all the dignity that's burning inside
Can't you see I'm standing naked?
I'll bear all the crosses and the crucifixes you can provide
Naturally, change often (if not always) leads to new problems. Sometimes extremely awkward problems. You know the kind - the problems that keep you up, tossing and turning at night, wondering if you've finally cracked for wanting the one thing you absolutely know you shouldn't.
04. Twisted Logic -- Coldplay
Sunlight opened up my eyes
To see for the first time
It opened them up
Don't fight for the wrong side
Say what you feel like
Say how you feel
You'll go backwards, but then
You'll go forwards, again
And eventually you realize that you absolutely must have cracked, because otherwise the words spilling unbidden out of your mouth wouldn't be there making you feel like the biggest fool to live, and all you can hope for is that either he'll respond in kind or be quick about punching you out.
05. Tangled Up In Me -- Skye Sweetnam
Could you see I want you by the way I push you away
Yeah, don't judge me tomorrow
By the way I'm actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reactions, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me
You wanna know more, more, more, about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see
But, of course, he's got a reputation to live up to - that of Biggest Prat Ever. Which translates into him hinting that he's interested only to push you aside and ignore you until he's good and ready to play nice again, and so the cycle goes, and with it what you assume to be your last shred of sanity.
06. Tainted Love -- Marilyn Manson
Sometimes I feel I've got to run away
I've got to get away
From the pain you drive in the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I've lost my light
For I toss and turn, I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
His stupidly annoying mind games are almost enough to make you question just what it is that you see in him, and you keep thinking that maybe it would have been better never to have started this whole ridiculous affair. That maybe you should just give up and say to hell with it all, because honestly, he is a complete pain in the arse.
07. Poison -- Alice Cooper
I wanna love you, but I better not touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, and I don't wanna break these chains
I hear you calling and it's needles and pins
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you, but you're under my skin
I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
I don't wanna break these chains, poison
Burning deep inside my veins
...But, as much of a pain he is, he's yours. Yours to obsess over, to bitch and complain about, to try to get under his skin just as deep as he is under yours and never let him go. You think that maybe you're just masochistic, but that doesn't keep you from wanting him and wanting him to want you, need you, just as much as you need him.
08. Cast No Shadow -- Oasis
Here's a thought for every man
Who tries to understand what is in his hand
He walks along the open road of love and life
Surviving if he can
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to stay
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
As he faced the sun he cast no shadow
As they took his soul they stole his pride
As he faced the sun he cast no shadow
And even though he may be a pain, there is one unflappable truth that pushes you onward - that he grounds you, makes you feel real and alive. He may mock your status as the designated saviour of the world, but in the end, he sees you as just another boy, someone worthy of his attention; some twisted sort of equal. And that makes all the difference for you.
09. Hometown -- Akira Yamaoka
He spoke of tortured souls
So outrageous the toll
You could lose all you have
He refused to give in to the town that takes all
Survive
You must have the will
This movie doesn't end the way we want all the time
Then he shouts at the moon,
"She's gone!"
And fear has overcome
He was walking the mile
He was walking alone
Some part of you also knows that your attention, your unstated equivolence makes all the difference to him as well. He's spent most of his life learning, accepting one truth, only to have it turned on him and have his world turned upside down, leaving him with nothing but the need to survive. But your constant presence makes his life something more than simple survival.
10. Silent Lucidity -- Queensryche
If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down; a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize your dream's alive
You can be the guide
But I will be watching over you
I am gonna help to see you through
I will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you
Eventually, there comes a chink in his defences, and something in him decides to let go and give in to that which you both have been wanting for what seems so long, and for the first time, you truly feel at ease with the world as all its problems disappear between those brief moments of happiness.
11. The One I Love -- The Rasmus
Haven't slept in a week
My bed has become my coffin
Cannot breathe, cannot speak
My head's like a bomb, still waiting
Take my heart and take my soul
I don't need them anymore
The one I love is striking me down on my knees
The one I love drowing me in my dreams
The one I love over and over again
Dragging me under
Hypnotized by the night
Silently rising beside me
Emptiness, nothingness
Is burning a hole inside me
Take my faith and take my pride
I don't need them anymore
But of course those problems can't disappear forever. In those moments, you'd forgotten who it was you were with, his fickle attitudes and all the more aggravating aspects of his personality. Or perhaps you just wanted to believe that they would disappear once you were together... and that presumption cost you dearly.
12. Wasted Time (S-Mix) -- Fuel
Say it to my face
Look me in the eyes
And say what you have to say
You know we can't erase
These words before they bind
And turn the final page
Ah, here comes alone again
Cause everything's broken
Everything's vacant
Everything's wasted time again
Sentiments, hopeless
Innocence, jaded
Everything's wasted time again
Someday we might find
Some sacred place in time
But until then
All will share
Our dreams we left behind
The brevity of your happiness is enough to make you wail and curse the heavens, but all you manage to find the energy for is to question if all of the aggravation was worth it for the happier moments. But you don't know the answers, because they depend on his answers, and he isn't telling you a damn thing.
13. Another Hole In The Head -- Nickelback
I'm through thinking of things to say to you
It's true, I've said enough and so have you
Just drive, you slam the door and so do I
Tongue-tied from all the little things
And they're the reason that I scream
I needed you
Probably as bad as I need another hole in the head
Cause I needed you
Car keys in your hand I believe that you would leave me for dead
It's at that point that you revert to your old defence mechanisms, and the anger filters into your system, hot and fierce as ever. What the hell were you thinking? Of course he's like this; always has been, always will be. You really must be a masochistic bastard. It's the only explanation that makes any sense, because making sense is something that doesn't easily fit into the interaction between you two.
14. Through With You -- Maroon 5
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause everytime you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think that you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all
Heartache, heartache, I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
And it just figures that at this point, once he's gotten you truly riled up, he decides to come waltzing back, acting as though everything is right as rain, as though this is just another of your normal tiffs. Maybe it is. But that would mean you were wrong about something along the line, and you just can't handle that right now, so you push him away. It's the only way you know how to deal with him.
15. Hole In The World -- The Eagles
They say that anger is just love disappointed
They say that love is just a state of mind
But all this fighting over who is anointed
Oh how can people be so blind
There’s a hole in the world tonight
There’s a cloud of fear and sorrow
There’s a hole in the world tonight
Don’t let there be a hole in the world tomorrow
But... there's something different this time. He doesn't bait you, doesn't rise to your tempter. For once, he's lost for a reaction, and that unsettles you more than anything. Before you know it, a quiet, unruffled corner of your mind is whispering, wishing everything could go back to how it was, during the good times.
16. Shameless -- Billy Joel
And I'm changin'
Swore I'd never compromise
But you convinced me otherwise
I'll do anything you please
You see in all my life, I've never found
What I couldn't resist, what I couldn't turn down
I could walk away from anyone I ever knew
But I can't walk away from you
I have never let anything have this much control over me
I worked too hard to call my life my own
I made myself a world, and it worked so perfectly
But it's your world now, I can't refuse
I've never had so much to lose
But before you can even think to apologise for something you don't remember doing, he amazes you again by beating you to it. Him, apologising. For something he didn't think was out of the ordinary. And that's when you realize this means more to him than he's ever let on before. For all his posturing and whinging, he's let you glimpse through that mask he depends so heavily on, and you can't help but feel luckier than you ever thought possible.
17. Good Enough -- Evanescence
Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you
Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel good enough
I feel good enough for you
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough
And he takes you back, or you take him back, but it doesn't matter who takes whom back because you're together again and that's all that matters. In one undefinable moment, you understand that no matter how much you drive each other crazy, you still need one another, that it's what you need to make everything real.
18. The Wayfarer -- Nightwish
Wayfarer, heartlander
What if I only had
One more night to live?
Home is where the way is
My road goes on forever
One more voyage to go
And if that's your reality, even if the heat and passion of it all sends the both of you up in spectacular flames by the end, it's still yours, and that's all that matters.