moving on and moving out
things have really turned fast and i don't know how to handle them sometimes. i feel like everyone has turned on me for one stupid mistake i made, never should have gotten this apartment i just thought it would be fun living with my friends it turned out to be one of the biggest mistakes i've ever make in my life. i wish i could run away from everything thats what i want most just to get away from everyone and everything, i don't like the way my life is going and i know this isn't the way things are supposed to be. i just keep telling myself that i'm the bigger person in all of this because i know i am. i can not wait till i move to kalamazoo everything will be new and i just feel like i can start over, i don't like my job anymore and i just feel like a failure here. i'm puting myself under more stress than i can handle and i get myself into such big messes all the time. i just want to simplify my life, have a job i truely enjoy and just be happy. as for right now i guess i'm just going to have to put up with all these people and i always know i have my family to fall back on. as for these people talking shit and making my life hell. grow up seriously. i'm at work to make money and thats it i really could care less to associate with any of you anymore out of work. i like being friendly and having friends at work but i guess there is just too much drama there for me. i guess i just never should have come back to work there. so thats whats going on with me right now, hopefully things start looking up.