Realities.

[periphrasis]

I weep for the missed opportunities, I cringe at the sight of undertakings that failed to exist in the way that was most desired and pursued, I shudder when I think of how many years I have lived an empty, escapist existence, and most importantly but still very saddening to have an awareness for . . .

My heart undergoes more blackening. Yet another breathtakingly high wall constructed in the direct path of discovering motivation and meaning and purpose.