Bak to basicz. bitch and moan.
goddammit I'm seriously going stir crazy.
I can't sleep. So I end up in bed by 5am. This of course causes me to miss class (yeah, back in college... we'll see how long that lasts). I honestly don't even know how many days of class(ES) I've missed because I'm having trouble distinguishing one day from the next. I'm 28 fuckin' years old and I can't keep a job, I can't seem to make it through college and in my free time, I work on projects that go nowhere. This is promising.
I've got classes tomorrow but I'm supposed to have something for English prepared (not done). I've got a quiz in Religion that I didn't even consider until 10mins ago because I haven't even thought (literally) to open my notebook until now. The gas tank in my Jeep is filled with air (ie. no gas) which means if I do decide to make it to school........ I have no idea how I'm going to get there + pay for parking seeing as how I haven't had a cent to my name for the last three months (literally).
I've spent the last three hours trying to figure out how to entertain myself being that I'm not sleepy yet. I thought about working some more on my greeting card site design but gave up for lack of inspiration and wondering whether or not it's all just a waste of time... as even when I DO finish the layout, I've got nobody to build it and I sure as hell don't know enough about CSS and PHP to do it. Pointless. I checked my MySpace and then realized I'd deleted all of my profile info because MySpace is evil and only wants to lead you into believing that you're actually forming close bonds and friendships with people when in reality, all the place is a haven for people to advertise shit (which I've tried) and get no response.. although there is Dane Cook. The bastard. I tried logging onto one of the many Instant Messengers I've got but nobody was online. AIM removed all of my friends, I imagine because I hadn't used my account in 2+ years. Finally I resorted to cleaning up my Internet Explorer Favorites.
Fuck. Computer games even seem pointless these days. I used to play Everquest because I knew that although it WAS pointless, I didn't think about it. As soon as I log-in now, I think to myself how utterly stupid it is that I spend 10hrs leveling up my dwarf warrior.
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!#@
I can't sleep. So I end up in bed by 5am. This of course causes me to miss class (yeah, back in college... we'll see how long that lasts). I honestly don't even know how many days of class(ES) I've missed because I'm having trouble distinguishing one day from the next. I'm 28 fuckin' years old and I can't keep a job, I can't seem to make it through college and in my free time, I work on projects that go nowhere. This is promising.
I've got classes tomorrow but I'm supposed to have something for English prepared (not done). I've got a quiz in Religion that I didn't even consider until 10mins ago because I haven't even thought (literally) to open my notebook until now. The gas tank in my Jeep is filled with air (ie. no gas) which means if I do decide to make it to school........ I have no idea how I'm going to get there + pay for parking seeing as how I haven't had a cent to my name for the last three months (literally).
I've spent the last three hours trying to figure out how to entertain myself being that I'm not sleepy yet. I thought about working some more on my greeting card site design but gave up for lack of inspiration and wondering whether or not it's all just a waste of time... as even when I DO finish the layout, I've got nobody to build it and I sure as hell don't know enough about CSS and PHP to do it. Pointless. I checked my MySpace and then realized I'd deleted all of my profile info because MySpace is evil and only wants to lead you into believing that you're actually forming close bonds and friendships with people when in reality, all the place is a haven for people to advertise shit (which I've tried) and get no response.. although there is Dane Cook. The bastard. I tried logging onto one of the many Instant Messengers I've got but nobody was online. AIM removed all of my friends, I imagine because I hadn't used my account in 2+ years. Finally I resorted to cleaning up my Internet Explorer Favorites.
Fuck. Computer games even seem pointless these days. I used to play Everquest because I knew that although it WAS pointless, I didn't think about it. As soon as I log-in now, I think to myself how utterly stupid it is that I spend 10hrs leveling up my dwarf warrior.
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!#@