alot to ask

[periol]

alot to ask

you should know up front
when i say
                i love you
i do not want you to hear
that you should fear
losing me

i do not want love
that pretends around me,
            that cannot believe
in itself
for itselfsake.

when i say i love you
i mean
you have my permission
            to hurt me
but i trust you will not.

when i say i love you
regardless
                of circumstance
it means no matter what

i love when it hurts
and i hope
                it never does.
and that is all
i ask in return.

don't worry
i know it's
alot