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I don't think I've ever killed myself this much over a piece of fanfiction.
Seriously. That was absolute hell for me. My entry for mwpp_mischief, I mean.
Maybe it's because I've never really written for the HP fandom--really weird when you think about it, actually, considering I've been a fan of the series since I was about 9--although I did do some online RPGs back in '07. That was a point when I felt like my in-character writing was really good. Because, well, people told me so. But after I went to college I actually stopped writing fanfiction entirely for about two years.
I hold so much love for HP, its community, its author, and the book series. It's handsdown my favorite book series ever. I love these characters, and I want to do them justice.
It's hard to do justice for two characters who were never alive over the course of the entire series, and all you really have to run on are the memories of others.
Maybe it's because I don't really have Lily and James down in my head yet that I had so much trouble with this prompt. Maybe it was just the prompt itself. For whatever reason, I'm not particularly proud of what I turned in for the contest, even though it took me nine separate tries to actually write a complete fic. And it's not even that preview that I posted the other day. I scrapped that and did something completely different.
Really, I don't even know why I'm posting about all this. I think part of me is actually worried about the state of my writing in general. I've been a better writer in the past. At least, that's how I feel. So what's happened that's changed it? I really did used to like what I wrote.
And writing is pretty much the only thing I'm good at.
I'd like to blame stress and school, but I'm not sure if that's it, because writing is usually an outlet for me. It's something I can use to step out of reality. It's the same for reading.
Aargh...
Aaanyway, on a happier note, I did manage to get 4,888 words written for the challenge. At the end, what I ended up with just kind of spewed out of me. So I guess that's a good thing.
Seriously. That was absolute hell for me. My entry for mwpp_mischief, I mean.
Maybe it's because I've never really written for the HP fandom--really weird when you think about it, actually, considering I've been a fan of the series since I was about 9--although I did do some online RPGs back in '07. That was a point when I felt like my in-character writing was really good. Because, well, people told me so. But after I went to college I actually stopped writing fanfiction entirely for about two years.
I hold so much love for HP, its community, its author, and the book series. It's handsdown my favorite book series ever. I love these characters, and I want to do them justice.
It's hard to do justice for two characters who were never alive over the course of the entire series, and all you really have to run on are the memories of others.
Maybe it's because I don't really have Lily and James down in my head yet that I had so much trouble with this prompt. Maybe it was just the prompt itself. For whatever reason, I'm not particularly proud of what I turned in for the contest, even though it took me nine separate tries to actually write a complete fic. And it's not even that preview that I posted the other day. I scrapped that and did something completely different.
Really, I don't even know why I'm posting about all this. I think part of me is actually worried about the state of my writing in general. I've been a better writer in the past. At least, that's how I feel. So what's happened that's changed it? I really did used to like what I wrote.
And writing is pretty much the only thing I'm good at.
I'd like to blame stress and school, but I'm not sure if that's it, because writing is usually an outlet for me. It's something I can use to step out of reality. It's the same for reading.
Aargh...
Aaanyway, on a happier note, I did manage to get 4,888 words written for the challenge. At the end, what I ended up with just kind of spewed out of me. So I guess that's a good thing.