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It's a new year, and it seems I've drifted back to my livejournal along with it.
Maybe I'm being optimistic, or maybe it's just the fact that I finally feel like I've straightened everything else in my life out, but I'm feeling good about the new year.
I realize that most of the things I complain about are petty things, and that I was too stressed out over the little things. I kid you not, I would get freaked out because I had to call someone I didn't want to call, or write an e-mail that I just didn't want to write. Even stuff like needing to clean my room would get to me. Add on top of that all the real problems, and it was a nightmare!
And I know this sounds so silly, but one of the first things that happened in the new year is something that has so much significance to me. With help, I solved a rubik's cube. I know that sounds so tiny, so minute, but it made me feel wonderful. I felt accomplished, and I felt compelled again to learn and exercise my mind. I watched a wonderful person play the piano with stunning grace while I sat next to them, and I spent the last eve of the year in perfect companionship with some friends.
I had resolution to problems with old friends, and I had final resolution with myself.
But that damned little rubik's cube.
Oh, I don't think you'll even understand.
It's so perfect.
Maybe I'm being optimistic, or maybe it's just the fact that I finally feel like I've straightened everything else in my life out, but I'm feeling good about the new year.
I realize that most of the things I complain about are petty things, and that I was too stressed out over the little things. I kid you not, I would get freaked out because I had to call someone I didn't want to call, or write an e-mail that I just didn't want to write. Even stuff like needing to clean my room would get to me. Add on top of that all the real problems, and it was a nightmare!
And I know this sounds so silly, but one of the first things that happened in the new year is something that has so much significance to me. With help, I solved a rubik's cube. I know that sounds so tiny, so minute, but it made me feel wonderful. I felt accomplished, and I felt compelled again to learn and exercise my mind. I watched a wonderful person play the piano with stunning grace while I sat next to them, and I spent the last eve of the year in perfect companionship with some friends.
I had resolution to problems with old friends, and I had final resolution with myself.
But that damned little rubik's cube.
Oh, I don't think you'll even understand.
It's so perfect.