boys boys boys.
two weeks after we hooked up they did. at my house. and i wasn'te even there. although if i had been would it have been different? probally no. he ignored me but fucking asked her out. i am so happy they aren't dating. and that he used the same excuse. i am not as upset as i thought i should be but i mean i am still hurt although not really by either of them. i am mad at myself for doing this to myslef all over agian.
on another note. it was so liberating to see him agian (a different him). so laugh and wave from a distance. to be other it. over him. after i let him hurt me so much. to not feel pain from him was so amazing. i thought i would never get to this point. although i can't stop thinking about running into him. that is a very bad thing. i should stop thinking about it. about his pink shirt and shorter hair and that little grin that freed me from the feelings that had overpowerd me.
with four plus boys on my mind... the end of school dosen't seem that important.
on another note. it was so liberating to see him agian (a different him). so laugh and wave from a distance. to be other it. over him. after i let him hurt me so much. to not feel pain from him was so amazing. i thought i would never get to this point. although i can't stop thinking about running into him. that is a very bad thing. i should stop thinking about it. about his pink shirt and shorter hair and that little grin that freed me from the feelings that had overpowerd me.
with four plus boys on my mind... the end of school dosen't seem that important.