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This week is going to be unbelievalble stressful, night skiing, sewing two costumes, setting up sadies and a new semester with new standards to live up to. I sure hope I can keep it all together and it probally won't help I haven't had the most postitive mental state recentally either. It seems to have been a long time since I have relaxed. I want to be in love again, as stupid as that sounds. My new years resolution was to not let boy control my emotions. I have hopelessly failed. I love having an obsession and a challenge I can't help that. Last year was full to the brim with them. They made me crazy, happy and sometimes very depressed, but looking back on all of that has made me want to want someone agian. There is just that feeling and I miss it. The courses this season have been hopelessly ruted. This weekend I pulled myself out of them and came out on top. I want to do that agian but this time in life.