Hmm...
The small differences in ideas or personal preferences seem to get in the way of my professional, personal, private, etc. relationships..it's all so confusing. It's people out to get one another so that they can feel half way decent about themselves and how they run their lives. In all truth, walking through life with your head in your shirt collar is no way to live.
People told me, my WHOLE life, to just be myself...but what I didn't realize in my misguided and impassioned youth was that what they MEANT was "be yourself the way my expectations allow you to be" not to truely be the person I am comfortable being inside. But it doesn't end there unfortunately, in my everyday life, at social gatherings, in school, at home, at work, this "fine-print" behind the hopeful clich`e is very much alive...sometimes I wonder if I am the only one in the world left without this character flaw. I'm thinking about getting a shirt made that has two words in bold letters on the front that read "AS IS." so that I may warn people of the pointlessness their expectations on how I "should be" as oposed to how I am really are. One's opinion or approval are not needed nor nessisary, because it is the exseptance of diversity that truly makes a friendship and love between people possible and worth holding onto.
All of this my friends know, and the one's that I am truely close to and admire personify these traits....in my admiration of these select few individuals and I am thankful to have them in my life, because they give me continueing hope to believe that there are other people out there like us, who's eyes are blind to twisted body image and it's superficiality, to race and culture, age and religion, and all other things that cause the children of this earth to kill, to promote war and hatred, destroy themselves and spend their time gazing into the mirror as if it were a horror show, and to alienate others who are different to them....in such small ways.
.....Charlotte S.
People told me, my WHOLE life, to just be myself...but what I didn't realize in my misguided and impassioned youth was that what they MEANT was "be yourself the way my expectations allow you to be" not to truely be the person I am comfortable being inside. But it doesn't end there unfortunately, in my everyday life, at social gatherings, in school, at home, at work, this "fine-print" behind the hopeful clich`e is very much alive...sometimes I wonder if I am the only one in the world left without this character flaw. I'm thinking about getting a shirt made that has two words in bold letters on the front that read "AS IS." so that I may warn people of the pointlessness their expectations on how I "should be" as oposed to how I am really are. One's opinion or approval are not needed nor nessisary, because it is the exseptance of diversity that truly makes a friendship and love between people possible and worth holding onto.
All of this my friends know, and the one's that I am truely close to and admire personify these traits....in my admiration of these select few individuals and I am thankful to have them in my life, because they give me continueing hope to believe that there are other people out there like us, who's eyes are blind to twisted body image and it's superficiality, to race and culture, age and religion, and all other things that cause the children of this earth to kill, to promote war and hatred, destroy themselves and spend their time gazing into the mirror as if it were a horror show, and to alienate others who are different to them....in such small ways.
.....Charlotte S.