Alive, and sort've well-ish...
Hello and A THOUSAND APOLOGIES to all you lovely, kind, concerned, people. I feel really bad to have been out of touch for such a long time, and to have caused a bundle of worry and inconvenience to those of you who sent me packages/are expecting packages or awaiting postage monies from me. Since I was last around I have a had a really rough ride with health issues IRL and I'm so sorry I wasn't able to get in touch to let you know what was going on.
One or two of you know, (but most probably don't know) that I suffer from depression with anxiety disorder. A little while before I disappeared my antidepressant meds got changed, and they really weren't working out for me, so when my initial supply ran out I just stopped taking them altogether. Ordinarily I would know this is a stupid thing to do, but because of the effects they were having I wasn't exactly thinking that sensibly; catch 22.
Once I came off them altogether, things got even worse and I became very sick indeed. On top of that, my therapist has been away for a month, and I live on my own so I was in a seriously bad state with no proper support network around. I wound up spending a short time in hospital and afterwards stayed with some friends who did a grand job of insulating me from anything more stressful than washing, dressing and eating.
Meanwhile my Mum was popping into my flat now and again and also checking my emails occasionally, but rather than wanting to bother me while I was still rather fragile she made a helpful list of things to do and people to contact, which she left waiting for me at home. I came back on Sunday and started working my way through the list on Monday, starting with the really urgent bills etc, but rest assured you guys were pretty high up the list, thanks in no small part to la_colere's very sweet note and a lovely email from etienne. And also just because this community and the friends in it mean a LOT to me and I hate the idea of any of you worrying or thinking badly of me. I'm sorry that I got into a position where I wasn't able to think or act responsibly, thereby leaving you in the dark. I hope you'll understand, and please believe me when I say that if I could have dealt with things any better in the state I was in then I would have done so, because I have a huge amount of love and respect for you all.
xxx
Moving onto the business end of things, here's whats a-happening with money and packages and whatnot:
la_colere: I am in PayPal NOW doing the scent addict postage. When you get a chance pop the package on its way again and I'll send you some more IMMEDIATELY. Also I love you for being lovely.
la_dame_du_lac: The circular package is en route to the next participant as of this morning (with extra apologetic extras inside).
angelkitty101 I am in PayPal NOW sending the Inquisition postage funds. However I don't have the package, as it arrived during my period of mental and physical absence and I think that by now it will be on its way back to you (assuming there was a return address) so if it shows up *crossed fingers* please let me know and naturally I'll pay for a second postage.
ANYONE ELSE who I owe anything to, or who sent me something during the days of oblivion that I never confirmed receipt of please speak up in a comment, and I will get right on it.
One or two of you know, (but most probably don't know) that I suffer from depression with anxiety disorder. A little while before I disappeared my antidepressant meds got changed, and they really weren't working out for me, so when my initial supply ran out I just stopped taking them altogether. Ordinarily I would know this is a stupid thing to do, but because of the effects they were having I wasn't exactly thinking that sensibly; catch 22.
Once I came off them altogether, things got even worse and I became very sick indeed. On top of that, my therapist has been away for a month, and I live on my own so I was in a seriously bad state with no proper support network around. I wound up spending a short time in hospital and afterwards stayed with some friends who did a grand job of insulating me from anything more stressful than washing, dressing and eating.
Meanwhile my Mum was popping into my flat now and again and also checking my emails occasionally, but rather than wanting to bother me while I was still rather fragile she made a helpful list of things to do and people to contact, which she left waiting for me at home. I came back on Sunday and started working my way through the list on Monday, starting with the really urgent bills etc, but rest assured you guys were pretty high up the list, thanks in no small part to la_colere's very sweet note and a lovely email from etienne. And also just because this community and the friends in it mean a LOT to me and I hate the idea of any of you worrying or thinking badly of me. I'm sorry that I got into a position where I wasn't able to think or act responsibly, thereby leaving you in the dark. I hope you'll understand, and please believe me when I say that if I could have dealt with things any better in the state I was in then I would have done so, because I have a huge amount of love and respect for you all.
xxx
Moving onto the business end of things, here's whats a-happening with money and packages and whatnot:
la_colere: I am in PayPal NOW doing the scent addict postage. When you get a chance pop the package on its way again and I'll send you some more IMMEDIATELY. Also I love you for being lovely.
la_dame_du_lac: The circular package is en route to the next participant as of this morning (with extra apologetic extras inside).
angelkitty101 I am in PayPal NOW sending the Inquisition postage funds. However I don't have the package, as it arrived during my period of mental and physical absence and I think that by now it will be on its way back to you (assuming there was a return address) so if it shows up *crossed fingers* please let me know and naturally I'll pay for a second postage.
ANYONE ELSE who I owe anything to, or who sent me something during the days of oblivion that I never confirmed receipt of please speak up in a comment, and I will get right on it.