Nov 12, 2006 12:59
Friday evening was spent round Lewis's.
Saturday morning we all awoke and decided to go to France.
We went to France, bought pizza and then came home.
It was amazing. Standing up on top deck watching the orange lights of the Industrial port just fade away. A little music playing softly in the background, the wind almost blowing my glasses clean off my face. Then 'last summer' came on. And we were all singing. And it was wonderful.
We decided to go to France for the afternoon and we did. I love my life sometimes.
I think Luke's broken up with me. Or he's just ignoring me, which in my eyes equivelents to ending it. I'm not sad. It's nothing on the last bombshell, really. He won't talk to me and I won't talk to him. Yesterday night he was either A) sleeping. B) fucking. C) painting warhammer. I'd really rather he was seeing someone else than the warhammer actually.
Hey. Most girls sit home and cry when they get stood up, not me, I go to France.
Fuck you Luke Mair. Or get some other desperate little girl to. Me > Them anyday. Like I said, I won't hold you to it.
On Saturday he'll be at a work thing. With a chick that keeps hitting on him. Well, he's only got one thing holding him back now. I have nothing to hold me back on Saturday. Kirsty Whiteley's 18th. I won't be standing for 11 hours atleast. I'll make sure of it.
I miss talking to him a little. Natural Born Killers is on C4 on Tuesday. Tamz =]
I'm not good enough to be used anymore. I still want to lose weight. I want to have a clear complexion. I want my dad to be talking to me. I want to finish The Named. I want to talk to my fucking father and I want him to give a fuck. Stupid fucking man.
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