Im Home....Trip from H-E-L-L
Hi All
Well,I made it home alive ....BARELY. I drove home alone from Pittsburgh,PA to Richmond,VA and got the WORST directions possible to avoid tolls. I was immediatelly in a crash trying to read these stupid directions my friend wrote down and drive ( NOT GOOD ) and smacked into the mini van in front of me going 45mph. I frew forward, was wearing my seat belt, always do, but smacked the C-R-A-P outa my sternal wire that sticks out b/c I lost so much since the surgery 5 or so yrs ago, I've had chest and heart surgery in the past.
So I thought I just wanna get home, my hubby's gonna kill me, my chest is killing me and I've had a lung transplant so what do I do. But my hubby was just as freaked b/c my stupid stupid dumb freaking friend had no car and so of course no one could get me. So he said call 911. The poor lady I hit, once she saw this pin thin girl get outa the car and then find out she'd had major surgery in the past and was sobbing she was just trying to calm me down. Her car didn't even have any dents. So no biggy on her part.
so the police come and then they freak b/c they find out about my medical problems and see I have a feeding tube too and then find I've had a transplant and have a sternal wire and my chest hurts and so they insist on me being checked out by an ambulence. I was checked out but refuse to go the hospital, Im just sore. But the car is now nondrivable even though there isn't even a dent. Somehow, the impact bounced us off each other but punched a hole in my radiator. LOVELY.....
The cops felt so bad for me, he didn't give me a ticket or anything.....
Then I had to go walk to the mall to wait on the tow truck guy, then he took me to the rent a car place. By the time all was said and done it was dark and I had a long trip and had no idea where I was going.
I ended up going the worst possible way. If I had been going during the day, I could have taken a quick scenic route with shops and it would have been real pretty. I would have had hubby drive too. But these stupid directions had me driving through the mountains with tons of snow, I have never driven through snow,ice, pea thick fog, total darkness, nothingness, half the time I don't know if I was in Penn or West Va.
Keep in mind the directions said a total of 6 hours.
Then 10 hours later I hits this adorable brightly lit up little town in West Va. It literally went from 45mpg to 25mph. Well, some cop was hiding as I was decelerating and thing how pretty it was and how they still had all their Christmas stuff still up and I'd love to live in a place like this. He was waiting for someone getting off the mountain pass, I was actually driving under the speed limit which is the funny part b/c I couldn't see and was also so scared and unsure driving in those conditions, to come along and snag. My foot was on the break. I didn't have time to go to 25mph. He decided to drop me to just 10 over, he clocked me at the posted 45mph speed limit on the mountain pass, jerk. But I wonder if I could fight this.
My hubby was mad b/c he just informed me he just got a ticket for 15 over.....great. this is my first accent EVER and my second ticket ever. He's had 3 accents since this summer now I've had one and got a ticket on the same day and he got a ticket. Ive had the same insurence since I was 16, I about to turn 32...UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh. I had safe pts. They are gonna drop me He had upped my insurence greatly and now I will.
I tried to do a friend a favor but all she did put me down about my ED, but yet she refused to eat, had no food in the house. My hubby was horrified when I got home b/c he saw how much weight I lost. Thats another story. But he made me step on a scale. Luckily I was bloated from driving so it didn't show the real number...so why did I get so upset at it? Anyways.....
We we supposed to do things, go out for pizza and she complained about everything,she didn't wanna do anything. I wanted to do a bunch of site seeing, nope. So all this trouble and money and for nothing. She didn't even wait around to see me off. She is to busy on the computer IMing on the date sites.With 10 year old photo's.
She also got into my meds while I was there. I have chronic pancreatitis and also my intestines will twist on themselves ( not good )and when I have a severe attack I have to take something. Well, apparently, she went through my stuff until she found my stash of pills in purse, I keep the with me at all times unless I am in the hospital, and when I would leave the room she would go into my purse and pop a pill until they were gone. One day she was like we have to go to the pharm today. Well, on the way there I started to have an attack and went to get a pill, and realized she'd taken them all. She just laughed and said like it was nothing, " Oh yah, I've been hitting your ******* hard at least three times a day. " The thing is she has the same meds just a lower dose. So she was taking mine and hers. Then I found she had taken my script I had gotten for an emergency for when I was there, I told her, Ashley what would have happened if I had needed something and you had taken them. She hadn't even asked and had
"Gone Looking" for that specifically. That meant, b/c my other meds were all laid out on the night stand she went through my suitcase and everything and then into my purse until she found it. Can you honestly say she was in agony everytime I left the room for her to take my pill and thats when the pain was at its worse, when I left the room.
But yet she blasts me for my ED,says I so stupid,didn't deserve my transplant (basically should have died ) all people with EDs are just stupid people. Not wanting to eat is just stupid. There is nothing wrong with your mind. Your can see your bones stick out. Nothing is distorted. There is no ED voice We are just stupid and psychology is stupid.
However. She went several days without eating ANYTHING at all and I ate more then she did. She took the cheese and everything off her pizza and only at 2 bits and said how much her stomach hurt after that, anything we ordered had something wrong with it so she wouldn't eat it. I made her chicken soup. She said she is having stomach problems and can't eat much b/c it hurts if she fills up so it was basically broth and some chicken I cooked until it feel apart and seasoning. She wouldn't touch it. Said it was to much for her stomach. There is food there, but she doesn't touch it.Even before this she refused to eat anything or drink anything with fat in it. I think she is making me feel bad b/c she has at least "EDNOS". She was losing weight while I was there and I was trying to get her to eat, but I think her seeing me, was triggering her. You girls know. I just hope that she went back to doing what she was supposed to now that someone smaller isn't around. She is used to being the sick center of attention. Also the smallest one and she wasn't and I think that really bothered her.Believe me, I didn't give her any clues and tried to help her eat and ate in front of her and tried to get her out of her room, but she wouldn't and every food item in her fridge/freeze had something wrong with it why she couldn't eat it and why it was gross. Sound familiar. I guess for her its easier to make me feel like C-R-A-P and
P-I-S-S me off and say absolutely hateful things about ANA and MIA, just like this ( she is kinda opinionated and listens to some one sided and often misguided media ) everyone in Hollywood that dies or has died young, does of ANA. Can't argue otherwise.Coming out to her, she was supposed to be my best girlfriend was the BIGGEST mistake of my life. I also wish my husband didn't know, but HBO gave that away not me. BY the way. I went to watch just a clip of that to check out the facility for treatment purposes and it actually triggered me and sent me back down hill. Not something anyone should see with emotional of visual type triggers. Then again my triggers are weird. you guess could post your stats all day long and written words in type don't bother me unless I've hurt someone.
Well,I made it home alive ....BARELY. I drove home alone from Pittsburgh,PA to Richmond,VA and got the WORST directions possible to avoid tolls. I was immediatelly in a crash trying to read these stupid directions my friend wrote down and drive ( NOT GOOD ) and smacked into the mini van in front of me going 45mph. I frew forward, was wearing my seat belt, always do, but smacked the C-R-A-P outa my sternal wire that sticks out b/c I lost so much since the surgery 5 or so yrs ago, I've had chest and heart surgery in the past.
So I thought I just wanna get home, my hubby's gonna kill me, my chest is killing me and I've had a lung transplant so what do I do. But my hubby was just as freaked b/c my stupid stupid dumb freaking friend had no car and so of course no one could get me. So he said call 911. The poor lady I hit, once she saw this pin thin girl get outa the car and then find out she'd had major surgery in the past and was sobbing she was just trying to calm me down. Her car didn't even have any dents. So no biggy on her part.
so the police come and then they freak b/c they find out about my medical problems and see I have a feeding tube too and then find I've had a transplant and have a sternal wire and my chest hurts and so they insist on me being checked out by an ambulence. I was checked out but refuse to go the hospital, Im just sore. But the car is now nondrivable even though there isn't even a dent. Somehow, the impact bounced us off each other but punched a hole in my radiator. LOVELY.....
The cops felt so bad for me, he didn't give me a ticket or anything.....
Then I had to go walk to the mall to wait on the tow truck guy, then he took me to the rent a car place. By the time all was said and done it was dark and I had a long trip and had no idea where I was going.
I ended up going the worst possible way. If I had been going during the day, I could have taken a quick scenic route with shops and it would have been real pretty. I would have had hubby drive too. But these stupid directions had me driving through the mountains with tons of snow, I have never driven through snow,ice, pea thick fog, total darkness, nothingness, half the time I don't know if I was in Penn or West Va.
Keep in mind the directions said a total of 6 hours.
Then 10 hours later I hits this adorable brightly lit up little town in West Va. It literally went from 45mpg to 25mph. Well, some cop was hiding as I was decelerating and thing how pretty it was and how they still had all their Christmas stuff still up and I'd love to live in a place like this. He was waiting for someone getting off the mountain pass, I was actually driving under the speed limit which is the funny part b/c I couldn't see and was also so scared and unsure driving in those conditions, to come along and snag. My foot was on the break. I didn't have time to go to 25mph. He decided to drop me to just 10 over, he clocked me at the posted 45mph speed limit on the mountain pass, jerk. But I wonder if I could fight this.
My hubby was mad b/c he just informed me he just got a ticket for 15 over.....great. this is my first accent EVER and my second ticket ever. He's had 3 accents since this summer now I've had one and got a ticket on the same day and he got a ticket. Ive had the same insurence since I was 16, I about to turn 32...UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh. I had safe pts. They are gonna drop me He had upped my insurence greatly and now I will.
I tried to do a friend a favor but all she did put me down about my ED, but yet she refused to eat, had no food in the house. My hubby was horrified when I got home b/c he saw how much weight I lost. Thats another story. But he made me step on a scale. Luckily I was bloated from driving so it didn't show the real number...so why did I get so upset at it? Anyways.....
We we supposed to do things, go out for pizza and she complained about everything,she didn't wanna do anything. I wanted to do a bunch of site seeing, nope. So all this trouble and money and for nothing. She didn't even wait around to see me off. She is to busy on the computer IMing on the date sites.With 10 year old photo's.
She also got into my meds while I was there. I have chronic pancreatitis and also my intestines will twist on themselves ( not good )and when I have a severe attack I have to take something. Well, apparently, she went through my stuff until she found my stash of pills in purse, I keep the with me at all times unless I am in the hospital, and when I would leave the room she would go into my purse and pop a pill until they were gone. One day she was like we have to go to the pharm today. Well, on the way there I started to have an attack and went to get a pill, and realized she'd taken them all. She just laughed and said like it was nothing, " Oh yah, I've been hitting your ******* hard at least three times a day. " The thing is she has the same meds just a lower dose. So she was taking mine and hers. Then I found she had taken my script I had gotten for an emergency for when I was there, I told her, Ashley what would have happened if I had needed something and you had taken them. She hadn't even asked and had
"Gone Looking" for that specifically. That meant, b/c my other meds were all laid out on the night stand she went through my suitcase and everything and then into my purse until she found it. Can you honestly say she was in agony everytime I left the room for her to take my pill and thats when the pain was at its worse, when I left the room.
But yet she blasts me for my ED,says I so stupid,didn't deserve my transplant (basically should have died ) all people with EDs are just stupid people. Not wanting to eat is just stupid. There is nothing wrong with your mind. Your can see your bones stick out. Nothing is distorted. There is no ED voice We are just stupid and psychology is stupid.
However. She went several days without eating ANYTHING at all and I ate more then she did. She took the cheese and everything off her pizza and only at 2 bits and said how much her stomach hurt after that, anything we ordered had something wrong with it so she wouldn't eat it. I made her chicken soup. She said she is having stomach problems and can't eat much b/c it hurts if she fills up so it was basically broth and some chicken I cooked until it feel apart and seasoning. She wouldn't touch it. Said it was to much for her stomach. There is food there, but she doesn't touch it.Even before this she refused to eat anything or drink anything with fat in it. I think she is making me feel bad b/c she has at least "EDNOS". She was losing weight while I was there and I was trying to get her to eat, but I think her seeing me, was triggering her. You girls know. I just hope that she went back to doing what she was supposed to now that someone smaller isn't around. She is used to being the sick center of attention. Also the smallest one and she wasn't and I think that really bothered her.Believe me, I didn't give her any clues and tried to help her eat and ate in front of her and tried to get her out of her room, but she wouldn't and every food item in her fridge/freeze had something wrong with it why she couldn't eat it and why it was gross. Sound familiar. I guess for her its easier to make me feel like C-R-A-P and
P-I-S-S me off and say absolutely hateful things about ANA and MIA, just like this ( she is kinda opinionated and listens to some one sided and often misguided media ) everyone in Hollywood that dies or has died young, does of ANA. Can't argue otherwise.Coming out to her, she was supposed to be my best girlfriend was the BIGGEST mistake of my life. I also wish my husband didn't know, but HBO gave that away not me. BY the way. I went to watch just a clip of that to check out the facility for treatment purposes and it actually triggered me and sent me back down hill. Not something anyone should see with emotional of visual type triggers. Then again my triggers are weird. you guess could post your stats all day long and written words in type don't bother me unless I've hurt someone.