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I can't sleep so I'm putting Sigur Ros and Explosions In The Sky on my ipod so I can calm my mind a little bit.
I'm officially dropped out of college. God, I suck so hard at life. But I've created a back up life plan, and I'll pretty much be making the same amount of money as if I'd stayed in college. And I definitely do plan on going back and finished my half completely degree. Just in a couple years when I can actually focus on school. And not suck so hard at life.
San Diego was fantastic. Definitely not long enough though. And it only made me feel closer to Patrick, so now I feel about a million times worse now that I'm away from him again. And he's been in the field since the day I left, so I haven't talked to him since I've returned to Illinois. Fuckin' shoot me, I'm losing my mind.
I haven't been home in so long, so I'm glad I'm going home for a couple days tomorrow night. I'm going fucking crazy.
I'm officially dropped out of college. God, I suck so hard at life. But I've created a back up life plan, and I'll pretty much be making the same amount of money as if I'd stayed in college. And I definitely do plan on going back and finished my half completely degree. Just in a couple years when I can actually focus on school. And not suck so hard at life.
San Diego was fantastic. Definitely not long enough though. And it only made me feel closer to Patrick, so now I feel about a million times worse now that I'm away from him again. And he's been in the field since the day I left, so I haven't talked to him since I've returned to Illinois. Fuckin' shoot me, I'm losing my mind.
I haven't been home in so long, so I'm glad I'm going home for a couple days tomorrow night. I'm going fucking crazy.