Music affects emotion.
So I am going to do something weird/different.
I am going to play random songs, and I won't be able to see what it is.
(Shuffle on iTunes = love.)
And then, I will list my emotions as I listen to that song, and what's running through my mind.
First Song:
You Know How I Do - Taking Back Sunday
Emotions: lonely, sad, desperate.
Thoughts: I wish Chris wasn't making me wait. I haven't talked to him in awhile, actually. I sent him a comment on Tuesday, and he never commented me back. But he's been online since then. Maybe he was in a rush. Maybe I am annoying him. I miss him. And it's pathetic that the only time I see him is on Sunday, at Sonrise. I can't wait until he and I go to that show together (I'm getting him show tickets for his birthday; I'll post that conversation later.), because I just want to hang out with him, just the two of us. I miss affection, I miss the boyfriend thing.
Second Song:
The Ocean - Mae
Emotions: Calm, loving, lonely, patient.
Thoughts: He is worth the wait. And I have no choice but to wait anyway. But he's worth it. He's worth anything. I miss him still, but whatever. I think that I could be good for him; I know he'd be perfect for me. I'm not worried. I mean, I could see him and I being happy. People who have seen us together say we look adorable together, and that makes me so...happy. I love who he is, inside and out. He's amazing. Seriously, I don't see anything wrong with him. He's funny, caring, nice, loving, friendly, outgoing--perfection. He doesn't do drugs, or drink. He respects me, and trusts me. I can't wait to get to know him better. Hopefully, we won't have to wait, but if I still do, I will. I'd do anything to know how it feels to be Chris' girl... :]
Third Song:
10,000 Questions - The Juliana Theory
Emotions: Confused, Pouring my heart out, giving.
Thoughts: What happens if, after all this waiting, he ends up not liking me at all? I'll have gone through all of this for nothing. I'll end up lonely, until the next one. What if I decide not to wait, and then he decides he likes me? It's unlikely, but what if? (Why did The Juliana Theory break up?!?!?!?!) How can I possibly get to know him if we keep talking as much as we do--which is like, once a week...maybe.--and when all we talk about is pointless?
See how much my thoughs change, from song to song?
And that's all honesty right there.
Music changes my emotions, my outlook, and my mind.
So it's pretty powerful stuff. :]
Look at these little convo-clips between Chris and I:
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 6:49 PM
ill add that to my 'buy these cds' list. :]
heyhey that jacket in your bulletin.
how much is it? & where is it?
because im getting you a birthday present,
except i have NO clue what to get you.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 6:55 PM
that jacket is like 35 bucks.
but i'm getting it like this week because i need a jacket.
things i want:
band shirts
concert tickets
haha then my life is complete.
or maybe a nice combat hat.
they have a sweeet one on solidstaterecords.com
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 6:59 PM
:]
well,
if i were to get you concert tickets,
which concert?
i was looking at an upcoming jack's mannequin show, but the only tickets i could find that were actually good seats, were $190 per ticket.
so i decided against that one. haha
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:02 PM
oh my gosh.
thats nuts.
i don't know what concert.
maybe my first hardcore show since destroy the runner like 3 months ago... 17 days after my birthday.
Demon Hunter
Spoken
August Burns Red
Becoming The Archetype
Plus Guest TBA
only 15 bucks.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:05 PM
:]
sounds good then.
you tell me how many tickets you want.
and ill buy them.
sound good?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:09 PM
you should come.
if your into that kind of music.
if not, i can imagine it being a headache.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:11 PM
:]
i actually like some of it.
but i would go, just to go.
so two tickets?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:12 PM
fer suree.
i have to make sure with my parents first.
because it is a hardcore show and all.
but it should be fine.
it's in like two months.
-------------------------------------------------
the next one was from The Day Of Silence, about why the Christian-society frowns about homosexuality. If you will be offended by this, only read the bold parts.
----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:35 PM
why do christians hate homosexuality?
i mean,
i'm christian.
but i never understood that part.
any answers?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:40 PM
hate the sin, not the sinner.
i know gay, lesbian, bi people who are my close friends.
i love them. i may not like their lifestyle, but i love them.
some indisputable scriptures to back it up:
Romans 1:26-27
Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:42 PM
"hate the sin, not the sinner"
i love that. :]
and thank you for clearing that up for me.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:46 PM
no problem.
even though, i don't know everything about christianity, i know people that know a lot more than i do. and if you ever have any other questions, feel free to ask. :)
---------------------------------------------------------------
he's amazing.
:]
And that's pretty much it, when it comes to Chris.
In other news:
1. I got myspace-married to a guy named John. I have a tiny itty bitty teeny weenie little crush on him. He's not that cute, but he's super super sweet. :D
2. I'm talking to both Eric and Garrett now. Oh, and Ben, too. Again.
3. Testing has started, and I love it. :]
4. I am reading the Bible! How exciting is that?
5. Sonrise is love.
6. I need money.
I love you alllll.
I am going to play random songs, and I won't be able to see what it is.
(Shuffle on iTunes = love.)
And then, I will list my emotions as I listen to that song, and what's running through my mind.
First Song:
You Know How I Do - Taking Back Sunday
Emotions: lonely, sad, desperate.
Thoughts: I wish Chris wasn't making me wait. I haven't talked to him in awhile, actually. I sent him a comment on Tuesday, and he never commented me back. But he's been online since then. Maybe he was in a rush. Maybe I am annoying him. I miss him. And it's pathetic that the only time I see him is on Sunday, at Sonrise. I can't wait until he and I go to that show together (I'm getting him show tickets for his birthday; I'll post that conversation later.), because I just want to hang out with him, just the two of us. I miss affection, I miss the boyfriend thing.
Second Song:
The Ocean - Mae
Emotions: Calm, loving, lonely, patient.
Thoughts: He is worth the wait. And I have no choice but to wait anyway. But he's worth it. He's worth anything. I miss him still, but whatever. I think that I could be good for him; I know he'd be perfect for me. I'm not worried. I mean, I could see him and I being happy. People who have seen us together say we look adorable together, and that makes me so...happy. I love who he is, inside and out. He's amazing. Seriously, I don't see anything wrong with him. He's funny, caring, nice, loving, friendly, outgoing--perfection. He doesn't do drugs, or drink. He respects me, and trusts me. I can't wait to get to know him better. Hopefully, we won't have to wait, but if I still do, I will. I'd do anything to know how it feels to be Chris' girl... :]
Third Song:
10,000 Questions - The Juliana Theory
Emotions: Confused, Pouring my heart out, giving.
Thoughts: What happens if, after all this waiting, he ends up not liking me at all? I'll have gone through all of this for nothing. I'll end up lonely, until the next one. What if I decide not to wait, and then he decides he likes me? It's unlikely, but what if? (Why did The Juliana Theory break up?!?!?!?!) How can I possibly get to know him if we keep talking as much as we do--which is like, once a week...maybe.--and when all we talk about is pointless?
See how much my thoughs change, from song to song?
And that's all honesty right there.
Music changes my emotions, my outlook, and my mind.
So it's pretty powerful stuff. :]
Look at these little convo-clips between Chris and I:
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 6:49 PM
ill add that to my 'buy these cds' list. :]
heyhey that jacket in your bulletin.
how much is it? & where is it?
because im getting you a birthday present,
except i have NO clue what to get you.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 6:55 PM
that jacket is like 35 bucks.
but i'm getting it like this week because i need a jacket.
things i want:
band shirts
concert tickets
haha then my life is complete.
or maybe a nice combat hat.
they have a sweeet one on solidstaterecords.com
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 6:59 PM
:]
well,
if i were to get you concert tickets,
which concert?
i was looking at an upcoming jack's mannequin show, but the only tickets i could find that were actually good seats, were $190 per ticket.
so i decided against that one. haha
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:02 PM
oh my gosh.
thats nuts.
i don't know what concert.
maybe my first hardcore show since destroy the runner like 3 months ago... 17 days after my birthday.
Demon Hunter
Spoken
August Burns Red
Becoming The Archetype
Plus Guest TBA
only 15 bucks.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:05 PM
:]
sounds good then.
you tell me how many tickets you want.
and ill buy them.
sound good?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:09 PM
you should come.
if your into that kind of music.
if not, i can imagine it being a headache.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:11 PM
:]
i actually like some of it.
but i would go, just to go.
so two tickets?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 24, 2006 7:12 PM
fer suree.
i have to make sure with my parents first.
because it is a hardcore show and all.
but it should be fine.
it's in like two months.
-------------------------------------------------
the next one was from The Day Of Silence, about why the Christian-society frowns about homosexuality. If you will be offended by this, only read the bold parts.
----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:35 PM
why do christians hate homosexuality?
i mean,
i'm christian.
but i never understood that part.
any answers?
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:40 PM
hate the sin, not the sinner.
i know gay, lesbian, bi people who are my close friends.
i love them. i may not like their lifestyle, but i love them.
some indisputable scriptures to back it up:
Romans 1:26-27
Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: CortnieDarling
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:42 PM
"hate the sin, not the sinner"
i love that. :]
and thank you for clearing that up for me.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: kuhristoefur [PAMOG][619]
Date: Apr 26, 2006 4:46 PM
no problem.
even though, i don't know everything about christianity, i know people that know a lot more than i do. and if you ever have any other questions, feel free to ask. :)
---------------------------------------------------------------
he's amazing.
:]
And that's pretty much it, when it comes to Chris.
In other news:
1. I got myspace-married to a guy named John. I have a tiny itty bitty teeny weenie little crush on him. He's not that cute, but he's super super sweet. :D
2. I'm talking to both Eric and Garrett now. Oh, and Ben, too. Again.
3. Testing has started, and I love it. :]
4. I am reading the Bible! How exciting is that?
5. Sonrise is love.
6. I need money.
I love you alllll.