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[xxx_torilee_xxx]

right so,
I haven't cut in one whole fucknig week
and I feel like dying
I mean, okay, Im a jealous girl,
that gets pissed off if her boyyfriend hangs out with other girls
especially if he seems like he has more fun doing it
But, whatever, I deserve to die for feeling like this

I need the sight of blood,
it's what keeps me sane
my insane-ness makes me sane,
if that makes any sense to any of you

And yeah,
all of my self-esteem is gone
it's seemed to vanish all of a sudden this morning
and then my algebra teacher asked me if I was a loner
great
I actually had to stop and think about it
and I concluded that most of the time,
Im all alone
all by my fucking self
thats because I dont deserve people
and Im fat
god, I need to be skinny...
I think it's time for me to stop eating again
woo for eating disorders
everything my counseler built up before...
Im simply just saying,
FUCK IT

sadness seems to be my best friend, casue it's always there
--ToriLee

x-posted to the other communities Im in