When I should be on top of the world
I work a job that pays really well and has awesome benefits... but I've realized that it doesn't make me happy. Perhaps I'll never be happy. I don't feel like I am helping people the way that I was meant to, the way I felt I was born to help people, I feel like i'm wasting my gifts like some fading star.
I don't write anymore. I find it too difficult and taxing. Its as if all this technology has reaped me of the ability to speak and write as I once did. I find myself so exhausted all the time.
I want to go back to school. At the moment, I'm a college drop out in my eyes. Yeah I"m making the money and I"m doing well for being said 'college drop out'. But, I'm incredibly intelligent! I could be doing so much more. Right now I'm contemplating going back and finishing my psychology degree and going pre med to become a psychiatrist. So much work though- I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I have enough strength to do it. I'm weak. I know I could but i'm worried about becomming bored and tired.
Patrick and I are still doing well. We just hit two months. We had some patches that were a little rough, but hey- nothing that's easy is really worth it. You have to work for something- you have to want something badly, sometimes you hafta bleed and cry for it. Perhaps I should take my ideology about relationships and apply it to my career ambitions.
I don't write anymore. I find it too difficult and taxing. Its as if all this technology has reaped me of the ability to speak and write as I once did. I find myself so exhausted all the time.
I want to go back to school. At the moment, I'm a college drop out in my eyes. Yeah I"m making the money and I"m doing well for being said 'college drop out'. But, I'm incredibly intelligent! I could be doing so much more. Right now I'm contemplating going back and finishing my psychology degree and going pre med to become a psychiatrist. So much work though- I don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I have enough strength to do it. I'm weak. I know I could but i'm worried about becomming bored and tired.
Patrick and I are still doing well. We just hit two months. We had some patches that were a little rough, but hey- nothing that's easy is really worth it. You have to work for something- you have to want something badly, sometimes you hafta bleed and cry for it. Perhaps I should take my ideology about relationships and apply it to my career ambitions.