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it's amazing to me.
it's amazing how just one song can unlock so much.
one simple chord of a song can take me back there.
i never really sat down, and thought about how different things were then.
if you were to put past and present rachel in the same room, how long would it take you to realize that they are the same person?
that one simple song has sparked so many questions.
why did i run away from the person that i used to be?
is the person that i am now really me?
or is it just a replica of everything i thought one was supposed to be.
i was so torn back then.
how could one person be so happy, yet so unhappy at the exact same time?
being on the road was the happiest time of my life.
sleeping in parking lots.
bathing in rest stop sinks.
eating shitty food.
not being able to put my feet on the floor, because it was covered with piles of mix cd's.
being so free to do whatever i wanted.
in a different city every night.
was this when i was the most happy?
was this the person i was meant to be?
why am i wondering about all of this now after so long?
all because of a fucking song.