i've always been told that i've got too much pride...

Mar 11, 2005 15:39

i'm freezing to death. it's so cold in this house, even though i turned up the thermostat ten degrees. what the crap. i'm so glad we're moving out in a month, i won't think of all the things that have happened in this house and all the things i've regretted in the past six months. when i think about it, i think i made more bad decisions since moving to fairfield than i did the entire time i was in rhode island. whoa. i've had this temporary fake tooth in my mouth for about twenty-four hours now, and it feels so weird. i would much rather have my own tooth, but we can thank a bad dentist and, consequently, lots of tooth decay underneath a bad filling for losing one of my precious teeth. i guess a fake tooth is better than a hole in my mouth, which is just white trash. gross. being cold lonely has got to be one of the worst feelings ever. i think i'll clean my room or something, and then call caitlin to see if she isn't too dizzy to go out for something to eat tonight. i'm sick of everything around me. i can't wait to leave for college and start over, hopefully it'll be more successful than the new beginning i had in september. i wonder if i'll ever get over leaving rhode island...you'd think after a few months, i'd let it go. but every day, i wonder what and how i would be doing if i were with my friends at west. and i think about all the possible trips to the warwick mall jessica and i could be taking. but the way i see it, leaving for montréal couldn't possibly be any worse than it is in fairfield, and i think i'll have a lot more opportunities to meet people who share the same interests as i do when i'm at college. which reminds me, i have to find a roommate to share an apartment with me. i've decided i'd like to live with a guy, and no, not for the reason you're probably thinking i'd want a guy to live with. one of the biggest positives of living with a guy is the fact that he doesn't take up much time or space in the bathroom, which means all the more time and space for me. looking this good doesn't come easy, it takes a lot of grooming and bathing. just kidding. i take twenty minutes to shower, but i don't take that long to get ready. if i tried, i bet i could look pretty hot though. whatever, this wasn't the point. i'm actually not sure if i had one. so you know what, i'm just going to stop. i'm listening to robyn for some reason.
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