Jan 19, 2005 14:32
Heyy Guys...
Member that guy i talked about the one who's perfect?
I found him, i never didnt know him, I have met him, back in sixth grade... Ill tell you about him but i wont tell who he is i dont think he wants people to know.
Its... he's sweet.. he's all like punkish and i love his hair its long and he just died it black. And as many times as i said he's perfect i love him sooo much...
I mean of course he has flaws but I love him for all and who he is. I wish he was feeling the same about me. Of course he knows its him. Ijust wish he wouldnt hate the fact that it is him
I cant change my feelings... nor do i want to i want to feel this way... and who better to be in love with than one of my closest friends.? he doesnt see it like that... he sees it as if we do date and break up then we'll ruin everything. I think maybe he just doesnt like me... or maybe he does and thats it or it could be something else. But he says we are such great friends... we dont talk as much as we used to i miss that. Hes told me to get over him several times because he doesnt want to jeopardize the friendship but... idunno
I wish people actually still read these thingys maybe hed actually reply or sumthing. THatd be ok...
I love him... Maybe hes just not ready i know its meant to be and i hope it will be. Im a strong believer in fate and destiny... I just hope it works in my favor for once.
I also dont want him to be upset with me... that would kill me even more TOday when i saw him i went all emo and crying because he is sooooo close yet soooooooooo far away
Well all for now... ttyal comment please...