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Sometimes I wish I was a better girlfriend but I guess I'm doing alright so far, all things considered. I feel like I'm trying so hard all the time to be the low-maintenance girl he tells people I am.
But, as much as I have mellowed out in the past year, I still get frustrated with things when they pile up. And I hate that sometimes (rarely) he bears the brunt of my anger. I don't want to be angry at him. He hasn't done anything. I suppose that I get frustrated sometimes with how lackadaisical he is about things, and how sometimes I just can't be that way. In these moments, like now, I wonder why he stays with me. I don't feel good enough for him right now.
It will be one year at the end of November, but then again, we never really had a formal beginning.
But, as much as I have mellowed out in the past year, I still get frustrated with things when they pile up. And I hate that sometimes (rarely) he bears the brunt of my anger. I don't want to be angry at him. He hasn't done anything. I suppose that I get frustrated sometimes with how lackadaisical he is about things, and how sometimes I just can't be that way. In these moments, like now, I wonder why he stays with me. I don't feel good enough for him right now.
It will be one year at the end of November, but then again, we never really had a formal beginning.