"...and every time you speak her name does she know how you told me you'd hold me until you died?"
Ghost
I've gotten so used to this depression it hardly fazes me anymore
Just warm nights like tonight
Sometimes I think I'd evolved past you
But, though I can kid all those around me,
I can not fool my longing
The pain blocks out the sun
My tears burn
You're my irresponsible lifestyle
The cocktail at my unhappy hour
The looking over my shoulder
And you're the whispers I hear in my hall
I swear I can see you in every doorway
In every shadow, hiding in my closet
You are the past that I fear
The footsteps behind me that I try to run from
But I can't because you're in every bad habit
Every unhealthy vice
In the face of every boy I take to my bed
Your name is every curse I speak
Every muffled scream
Every censored cry
I will never grow
I will never learn