Rambling
Same ol crap. Different day. Have a second job that I am jumping through hoops for in order to start in a few weeks.
Money has been tight and even with two of us arguing continues to ensue further and further....and others around just don't get it.
Went to the hospital Tuesday with a definite scare. I woke up for work with a severely swollen tongue and I was having difficulty breathing, speaking, and swallowing. Turns out my iron count dropped super low. I had to get a shot, and my Ferrous Sulfate pills were increased from once a day to twice a day. I also was given an insane amount of Ibuprofen which aided in reducing the swelling. Finally, two days later, I can eat and speak properly again. YAY!
I am way too sickly with too many stupid health problems to be 24 years old.
Sometimes I just want to disappear....
...and not have to wake up to the same mundane-ness that is my life.
...but I am working to get past this, and provide myself with something more meaningful to me for a change. I too often think of others first that I never stop and think about me. I can't do that to myself anymore. I am spreading myself too thin in addition to really just cheating myself.
As well, I find myself dealing with too many demanding and histrionic individuals that are so dense that they don't even realize or pick up on my cynicism towards their attention seeking stunts. I have reached the point of no longer biting my tongue (which I wont do anyways due to what just happened on Tuesday! lol)...and I REALLY REALLY am growing sick of this. I am not going to continue providing false hope and pretenses for these people.....blergh.
Anyways, the point amongst all of this completely inane rambling is that...I am starting to look out for me now. I have neglected myself too long to not do so.
Money has been tight and even with two of us arguing continues to ensue further and further....and others around just don't get it.
Went to the hospital Tuesday with a definite scare. I woke up for work with a severely swollen tongue and I was having difficulty breathing, speaking, and swallowing. Turns out my iron count dropped super low. I had to get a shot, and my Ferrous Sulfate pills were increased from once a day to twice a day. I also was given an insane amount of Ibuprofen which aided in reducing the swelling. Finally, two days later, I can eat and speak properly again. YAY!
I am way too sickly with too many stupid health problems to be 24 years old.
Sometimes I just want to disappear....
...and not have to wake up to the same mundane-ness that is my life.
...but I am working to get past this, and provide myself with something more meaningful to me for a change. I too often think of others first that I never stop and think about me. I can't do that to myself anymore. I am spreading myself too thin in addition to really just cheating myself.
As well, I find myself dealing with too many demanding and histrionic individuals that are so dense that they don't even realize or pick up on my cynicism towards their attention seeking stunts. I have reached the point of no longer biting my tongue (which I wont do anyways due to what just happened on Tuesday! lol)...and I REALLY REALLY am growing sick of this. I am not going to continue providing false hope and pretenses for these people.....blergh.
Anyways, the point amongst all of this completely inane rambling is that...I am starting to look out for me now. I have neglected myself too long to not do so.