Call me a hater if you want to [I only hate on him because I want you]
So Spring Break '05 started last Thursday at 2.10pm | In many ways so much has happened since then | That night I went to a movie + hot in plaster | Friday is when some shit went down though Put it as guys fought, then they got their back up and later 20 guys were wanting to fight again but turned out that they were all friends, I'm cool with Kaity's boyfriend again and all his friends [¿mcXn=hit?] Back and forth from house to apt. to house to BR to apt. to house to Jesse's to house to home to house | Saturday consisted of chillage at cubs, infront, and the infamous living room | Sunday = Easter dinner with Dorothy, hung out at Davies, saw the boys at toys, then chillage herre with serious conversation | Monday, shopped barely Hebs came home Celine Dion + Aretha in Walgreens, later FD2 with most of the crew | Tuesday, double date at supedos? downtown [hepaidformeaw] VIP parking and no service, parks galore, Re's new car, save by the bell hang out, cruising with the boys | Wednesday[wastoday] BR with Re, Kt, Mike, Chris, and James , then the 3 of us girls riding to nsync, petey pablo, and grease.. chilled at kaity's, birthday dinner for Stevens 20th at TGI Fridays, more cruising with Kt, Kristin, Mike and James, chilled at Ashleys -awesome- apt. with a bunch of kiddos, and home.
Not much detail.. but if you really wanna know on anything that went down.. just ask. And depending on who you are, I might tell. Lots happened though.. some things were good, some were bad. I guess you just got to pick and choose your battles.
Pissed like whoa about soo much shit. And gahh! I effing hate drama. There's this. Then there's that. And if you come between them you find me. I understand one sides reasons, then I understand the others. So I'm not really on either ones side and I'm not asking them to agree with each other but I just thought maybe they can talk things over and find a truse somewhere. Everyday I'm officially hating myself even more. I find a guy that likes me and that I think I like him, then I more or less use him till I come across the fact that I don't even like him. Then I'm too of a chicken to tell him so I just ignore their calls, etc. But this time I really would like to stay friends and be able to hang with him for the rest of break but I dont know how to tell him that. I hate hurting peoples' feelings. I feel like such a bitch. And thats not really even the worst of it because I know I like someone else the entire time but they don't seem to do squat about it at all and I do try but it doesn't do much good so thats when I find myself kissing someone else then regretting it in the end. I've decided to ((hopefully)) end my pathetic ways and start it off by not liking anyone at all. Though that doesn't mean I'm not looking, because I am but not for some lame fling or any of that shiiit. I'm looking for a new crush, a new friend.. someone whom I can be in a relationship where I don't do any of the previous.