Quiet 2011.
I have recently shared that I do not want to celebrate my 22nd and have gotten many "Why"s. Since I was not really very willing to say it as it is, here's a blog entry.
I haven't forgiven myself for how my relationship between Daddy and I ended. We spent the last month barely speaking and I only visited him once in hospital. Which was the night before his passing.
So, honestly, I did not want to celebrate my 21st at all. Whatever plannings I eventually did and the big party thrown was to be strong for Mummy, who has all along ben trying to be strong for us. And, I don't want to lie, I had an amazing night. I loved the company and I was so thankful for the love felt that night.
It's enough for me already.
So, I think. No more questions asked. I'd like a quiet birthday this year, no celebrations, no surprises. Simple dinners for reunion gatherings will be nice, but I think that's about all I think I can handle.
Until I have forgiven myself fully, I don't think deserve extravagance centered around me.
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