Here there be boredom.
Title(s): Almost Funny
Author: julia_dreamer
Fandom(s): Naruto
Length: 530 words
Note: I... was bored? Alot? Sasuke's emo was acting up. I had to do something. >.>
Disclaimer: I don’t own it. I don’t really want to think about what would happen if I did.
Feedback: Always appreciated.
You wonder when you decided to leave.
But then you decide that it wasn’t a decision, not really. It was an idea that grew and twisted inside your head until you realized that it was a way. Not the only way, never that. A traitorous voice in the back of your head reminds you that it doesn’t have to be this way. You could stay, you could give up this futile race towards death, and who would the people of Konoha be to judge you? They wouldn’t dare call you a coward, when they themselves fear the one you’ve sworn to kill. But you would know, wouldn’t you? You’d know that you’d given up that chance, that way, when Itachi returned again and took your life.
Because he would.
Ah, so that was it. You would go, to learn, to get stronger, to try and find the one thing Itachi wouldn’t expect so that when you fought him again you could kill him. Because even if you didn’t follow this path, he’d still come back. And then, perhaps, he wouldn’t stop with you. Just as he didn’t just stop with mother and father, he’d carry on past you and murder… Until when? Where would he stop? The whole village? Only the shinobi? Just your friends? But you only have one of those, only one that you’ll ever admit to, ever acknowledge.
One that you yourself have tried to kill.
God, but you couldn’t go through with it, even if it was the easiest way - the only fucking way - to get the Mangekyou, to defeat your awful brother and finally end the nightmares that plague you. You couldn’t do it - it was low, cowardly, to kill the person you cared the most for, it was Itachi’s way out. And you couldn’t be like him. You don’t ever want to be like him, even though you can remember looking up to him as a child, your idol, the be-all and end-all of your universe.
Smirking at you, covered in your entire family’s blood as he tells you that you aren’t worth killing.
You hate that it still hurts when you think of him, and not in the way it should. You’d be able to deal with it, if it were just the pain from knowing that your clan was dead, and only you were left. If it was just because it dredged up all the pain you felt when you saw him standing in the middle of all that carnage that had once been your happy home, cleaning your mother’s blood off his katana. If it was only painful because it called to mind the horror of the Mangekyou, and the nightmare he had trapped you in. If it was only because you’d nearly done it his way, nearly killed the only person who’d fucking meant something since you decided that things like ‘friends’ and ‘love’ were no longer an option.
It hurts because even though he’s murdered your family, and stolen your happiness, and broken your childhood, and ruined every part of you that loved life, he’s still your brother, and you still love him.
It’s almost funny, how that works.
[A/N] Yes. Emo. >.>
Author: julia_dreamer
Fandom(s): Naruto
Length: 530 words
Note: I... was bored? Alot? Sasuke's emo was acting up. I had to do something. >.>
Disclaimer: I don’t own it. I don’t really want to think about what would happen if I did.
Feedback: Always appreciated.
You wonder when you decided to leave.
But then you decide that it wasn’t a decision, not really. It was an idea that grew and twisted inside your head until you realized that it was a way. Not the only way, never that. A traitorous voice in the back of your head reminds you that it doesn’t have to be this way. You could stay, you could give up this futile race towards death, and who would the people of Konoha be to judge you? They wouldn’t dare call you a coward, when they themselves fear the one you’ve sworn to kill. But you would know, wouldn’t you? You’d know that you’d given up that chance, that way, when Itachi returned again and took your life.
Because he would.
Ah, so that was it. You would go, to learn, to get stronger, to try and find the one thing Itachi wouldn’t expect so that when you fought him again you could kill him. Because even if you didn’t follow this path, he’d still come back. And then, perhaps, he wouldn’t stop with you. Just as he didn’t just stop with mother and father, he’d carry on past you and murder… Until when? Where would he stop? The whole village? Only the shinobi? Just your friends? But you only have one of those, only one that you’ll ever admit to, ever acknowledge.
One that you yourself have tried to kill.
God, but you couldn’t go through with it, even if it was the easiest way - the only fucking way - to get the Mangekyou, to defeat your awful brother and finally end the nightmares that plague you. You couldn’t do it - it was low, cowardly, to kill the person you cared the most for, it was Itachi’s way out. And you couldn’t be like him. You don’t ever want to be like him, even though you can remember looking up to him as a child, your idol, the be-all and end-all of your universe.
Smirking at you, covered in your entire family’s blood as he tells you that you aren’t worth killing.
You hate that it still hurts when you think of him, and not in the way it should. You’d be able to deal with it, if it were just the pain from knowing that your clan was dead, and only you were left. If it was just because it dredged up all the pain you felt when you saw him standing in the middle of all that carnage that had once been your happy home, cleaning your mother’s blood off his katana. If it was only painful because it called to mind the horror of the Mangekyou, and the nightmare he had trapped you in. If it was only because you’d nearly done it his way, nearly killed the only person who’d fucking meant something since you decided that things like ‘friends’ and ‘love’ were no longer an option.
It hurts because even though he’s murdered your family, and stolen your happiness, and broken your childhood, and ruined every part of you that loved life, he’s still your brother, and you still love him.
It’s almost funny, how that works.
[A/N] Yes. Emo. >.>