I was afraid that you'd be afraid if I told you that I was afraid of intimacy...

[perfectflaws390]

hey all... I'm at Sarah-poo's house and it has been interesting... I thought the fact that she invited me over meant that she wanted to spend time with me but she spent ALL of last night on the phone with her boyfriend... I fell asleep and just left her there... yes I know... smart... I should have kicked her off the phone and I'm mad that I didn't. anyway so the part of the night where i wasn't being ignored was spent arguing over why I dont like her friends. is it so wrong for me to say that they just bother me? that I just dont like them. that they make fun of me and act like bitches to me? >:-0 sooooo frustrated right now. everything is still building up. I should have known that this would be a bad idea when she said "if my boyfriend can't come over do you wanna?" LOOK! I'm a last resort... this effing sucks... I miss my best friend and she cant for the life of her understand why. this sucks. so anyway i'm gonna chill here for like another half an hour and then I'm calling home whether she's awake or not and getting picked up. because I don't feel like waiting here for her to get up just so I can say hey! I almost had a good time, wish we coulda talked a bit though. oh well bye. NOT HAPPENING... she knows shes hurting me, I told her, my job is done and I have nothing more that I can say except that if she doesnt start treating me and leah like people... FRIENDS we're not gonna be there anymore because we're sick and tired of having to wait around for her to realize what's going on...we're done being dragged along for the ride while she does all her stupid cliche highschooler shit... I'm tired of all this. I have other friends and she knows it, she knows that I can easily stop talking to her. but she wouldnt notice because she never talks to me anyway. this effing sucks

...if you don't have a problem with my problem maybe the problem's simply codependency...