Plz just read
So i think this summer has to be the hradest one for everybody. I lost 8 ppl that were very close to me. Between that and being pregnant, my hormones were all fucked up. I wish i could just rewrite last summer. Make sure everyone was safe. Just erase everything.
The last two days, i just keep getting reminded of how painful everything is. My mind is so scrambled. I dont know what to think anymore. Sometimes i just wish i could escape from here. I dont care where i go just anywhere thats not here.
Its hard to lose one person, like a grandma or something, to natural causes. But when 8 ppl who are all under 24, You you loved and cherished. Who have touched so many ppls lives, who you know should still be here, the pain is just unbearable. Exspecially when the one who had to do with someones death, is still walking around a free man, without a care in the world. I cant take all this shit anymore. Its making me insane. I just wish that everything would stop. I wish ppl would realize what drugs are doing to them. That they dont need to be the skinnyest or prettiest person to be loved. That they have so much more in life to enjoy. That they would hurt so many ppl when they are gone. I wish the could know how many ppls lives they touched in one way or another. Something, anything, that would make them change what they were doing.
To everybody who is reading this:
I hope after reading this you can stop and think about your lives. And think about how many ppl would die inside if you ever left. How many ppl love you and plz just stop the drugs. They are not worth it. You have so much more going for you even if you dont think so. Everybody has somebody that loves them , who wouldnt be able to take it if you were dead. So plz just think about it.
The last two days, i just keep getting reminded of how painful everything is. My mind is so scrambled. I dont know what to think anymore. Sometimes i just wish i could escape from here. I dont care where i go just anywhere thats not here.
Its hard to lose one person, like a grandma or something, to natural causes. But when 8 ppl who are all under 24, You you loved and cherished. Who have touched so many ppls lives, who you know should still be here, the pain is just unbearable. Exspecially when the one who had to do with someones death, is still walking around a free man, without a care in the world. I cant take all this shit anymore. Its making me insane. I just wish that everything would stop. I wish ppl would realize what drugs are doing to them. That they dont need to be the skinnyest or prettiest person to be loved. That they have so much more in life to enjoy. That they would hurt so many ppl when they are gone. I wish the could know how many ppls lives they touched in one way or another. Something, anything, that would make them change what they were doing.
To everybody who is reading this:
I hope after reading this you can stop and think about your lives. And think about how many ppl would die inside if you ever left. How many ppl love you and plz just stop the drugs. They are not worth it. You have so much more going for you even if you dont think so. Everybody has somebody that loves them , who wouldnt be able to take it if you were dead. So plz just think about it.