Last night I couldn’t sleep so I began to walk around Royer for no reason until I walked past Aly and Janet’s room where Aly was playing some awesome music. I just kind of stood there for a little bit and listened, not thinking of anything in particular until she played one song. . . . A song in hasn’t moved me so long.
I was on your porch,
The smoke sank into my skin,
So I came inside to be with you,
We talked all night,
About everything you could imagine,
'Cause come the morning, I'll be gone,
And as our eyes start to close,
I turn to you and I let you know,
That I love you.
Well, my dad was sick,
My mom she cared for him,
Her loving nursed him back to life,
And me, I ran, I couldn't even look at him,
For fear I'd have to say goodbye,
And as I start to leave,
He grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me,
"What’s left to lose? You've done enough,
And if you fail then you fail but not to us,
'Cause these last three years,
I know they have been hard,
But now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun,
Even if its alone."
So now here I sit,
In a hotel off of Sunset
My thoughts bounce off Sam's guitar,
And that’s the way its been,
Ever since we were kids, but now,
Now, we've got something to prove,
And I, I can see their eyes,
Then tell me something, can they see mine?
'Cause what’s left to lose?
I've done enough,
And if I fail then I fail but I gave it a shot,
'Cause these last three years I know they have been hard,
But now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun,
Even if it's alone,
(Even if it's alone)
Even if it's alone.
I was on your porch last night, the smoke, it sank into my skin.
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There are a lot of things that have been bothering me lately, which is part of the reason why this song affected me so much. Aly and I ended up talking until almost two in the morning about life. That song isn’t happy and it isn’t sad, its real, its honest and it tells the truth. Songs like that are impossible to listen to without having some kind of emotion. The songs that relate to a specific emotion or time in your life, they're irreplaceable. Last night was the first time in a really long time that I was moved by a song. It was the first time in a long time that music made me feel something other than aggravation and annoyance, and that’s saying something.