Forgetting
Warum ist es unmöglich zu vergessen?
Meine Träume quälen mich.
Ich will vergessen.
Ich will vergessen alles.
Ich will vergessen alles, jetzt.
Sie hat mich vergessen, warum kann ich nicht vergessen, ihr?
Eternal sunshine for the spotless mind.
Today I watched Утомлённые солнцем. A wonderful film, although sad. Who am I? I would imagine that I would be Mitya. A talented, yet unpleasant man who is driven by emotion and his own selfish desires. If I were to portray myself in a negative light, this would probably be a fair description. Would I ruin the lives of others simply out of spite? Probably.
She was wise to escape me. But she was no better. Selfish and driven b incoherent motions and thoughts. Perhaps we were the same creature.
Things are slowly taking form. I don't know if this is what I want, but I am broken and need to find a way to pull myself back together again. I have decided that I certainly do not want to be with anybody for a long time. I cannot just jump from one relationship into another. I cannot even feel attracted to another girl, even if I wanted to. The Spanish girl was proof of that.
I think I will make a few more like this. A series of Tarkovsky/Cheburashka. Andrei Rublov and Cheburashka perhaps?
Meine Träume quälen mich.
Ich will vergessen.
Ich will vergessen alles.
Ich will vergessen alles, jetzt.
Sie hat mich vergessen, warum kann ich nicht vergessen, ihr?
Eternal sunshine for the spotless mind.
Click to viewToday I watched Утомлённые солнцем. A wonderful film, although sad. Who am I? I would imagine that I would be Mitya. A talented, yet unpleasant man who is driven by emotion and his own selfish desires. If I were to portray myself in a negative light, this would probably be a fair description. Would I ruin the lives of others simply out of spite? Probably.
She was wise to escape me. But she was no better. Selfish and driven b incoherent motions and thoughts. Perhaps we were the same creature.
Things are slowly taking form. I don't know if this is what I want, but I am broken and need to find a way to pull myself back together again. I have decided that I certainly do not want to be with anybody for a long time. I cannot just jump from one relationship into another. I cannot even feel attracted to another girl, even if I wanted to. The Spanish girl was proof of that.
I think I will make a few more like this. A series of Tarkovsky/Cheburashka. Andrei Rublov and Cheburashka perhaps?