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I'm not in the best mood again... yeah that took long huh? Anyway... I am beyond ready for my own place. My mom made the comment today about how I need to clean my room because "everytime she walks in there she has trouble finding things". What the fuck? I asked why she was going in there and she acted like she didn't even say it. Argh! It's not like I'm hiding anything. Actually I think that I am more than open with my parents aobut my personal life... that's why it pisses me off so much that she still finds the need to go through my things. well my room is completely clean now...just gotta put the sheets back on the bed. I went to take a shower and came back in mmy room and she had been in here.. my purse was on my bed. Yeah no big deal right... wrong... I wasn't gone for twenty minutes and that could have waited to move my damn purse. I just don't know what to do except just deal with it. everytime I say something she flips it all around like I'm doing something wrong and goes on about not being a good mother that that she should just kill herself because nobody cares blah blah blah.... see a pattern here... I could write a fricken book...
Another thing... sorry kinda in a bitchy mood... ok I know that I might have said this already but I have to pay for myself to go to Wright State... No help with scholarships no nothing from mom and dad. and yes I know that they can't pay for me to go there but they are making such a big deal about TJ going to Cedarville... no that it isn't, I am proud of him but damn... I'm going to college too. Make a big deal out of me. It's not like I'm stupid or something... but I guess since he is graduating from a real high school that he should go to a real college... not just a community college... it's seems like they don't expect much out of me... my grandparents tell me that they're proud of me more than my actual parents do. I don't know what else to say...
Another thing... sorry kinda in a bitchy mood... ok I know that I might have said this already but I have to pay for myself to go to Wright State... No help with scholarships no nothing from mom and dad. and yes I know that they can't pay for me to go there but they are making such a big deal about TJ going to Cedarville... no that it isn't, I am proud of him but damn... I'm going to college too. Make a big deal out of me. It's not like I'm stupid or something... but I guess since he is graduating from a real high school that he should go to a real college... not just a community college... it's seems like they don't expect much out of me... my grandparents tell me that they're proud of me more than my actual parents do. I don't know what else to say...