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Hmm im going to try this random post thing....
My friends, god my friends, they are great but i dont know we just never talk anymore....why does this always happen? I try my best at like trying to make plans and hang out with them but nothing ever works anymore. Then I tend to just sit back and let them plan stuff but i never am included. I start to think something is wrong with me but i never come up with what it could be.
I hate when i get jealous of you! God it pisses me off and then when i would call to see if you want to do something your already doing something...something i want to do but nooo your doing it with fag boy. GOD I EFFING HATE HIM!!! Nothing good is coming from this.
Jake and me are good, i think. We hung out last night but it wasnt very pleasant. I just sometimes think that we are going no where. I try to be happy all the time but last night just...it just....makes me think that he doesnt want it anymore.
OMG i almost broke down to cry. I feel like doing that alot lately, maybe since i try to the right things but they never seem to be right after i do them. OMG my mom just called and said she cut her wrist on glass. I hope shes ok. NOthing is going good anymore. From my friends to jake. Is it EVER going to be good again. Its like the harder i try the worse it gets. But i dont want to give up. Giving up isnt something i do. My life is getting complicated, i can never explain really whats going on with me. My thoughts and feelings collide together just making a big mess. I have tried many times to sit down and get things straight but the more i try to figure everything out the more confusion and tangled everything gets.