last one til i get back
I leave tomorrow around 10 i think. Im so sad. i dont want to leave now. i hate leaving. leaving sucks, it makes me homesick and miss alot of things. but at least i'll be back thursday right? Ugh but still i'll be gone. I hope i'll be missed. I sound like im dieing or something and like im fighting with myself. Well anyways enough with this leaving stuff since its making me even more sad. I found out something really hmmm interesting last night.....cant say what it is since it was confusing when the person told me it. It really scared me, for once some one actually felt stupid feeling something toward what, i have no idea. I wish i could understand alot of things. Ew im like putting myself down. No im not just sounds like it. I cant tell i am right now. Its really scary. Like i cant tell if im happy or sad or impressed or embarrassed or anything. Is that odd? Then last night was the first night i got real sleep. Felt real nice. Ever feel like your holding your breathe when you leave? Its like you leave-so it feels like you cant breathe then when you come back its like taking your first breathe of air. I felt I've been holding my breathe since thursday but im not leaving til tomorrow. All this is really really scaring me. Im not going to have all these high expectations when i get to delaware but two things im wishing for is enough time to talk on the phone and a really cool room mate. I sound pathetic but yea. I think im done with this spilling and maybe ill have alot to talk about when i get back....hopefully
look jessica, i updated!!! comments? <3