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I haven't wrote in here for a month since last year.
I feel like so much has gone on but its all flown by.
Somehow it feels blank like this journal has been.
So, right now, I'm pretty much sick of most the things going on. But when aren't I?
Half of me feels like this is the best time of my life right now, its only going to get better, and I know I'm going to be taken care of. Because I Love Him.
The other half feels like living isn't even worth the other half.(but it totally is.) It might seem like doubt, its not, its just hard to sit here and take. I've only got two more years, and I can finally get out of here. Put the past, you know, in the past.
I guess I just miss my dad a great deal lately. With everything going on now, and my birthday coming up, its just so much harder. But it seems like things will get better when I'm older and I can see of him more. I also feel like i'm losing time to spend. With him its like i couldn't be surprised if he died tomorrow. As much as I think I've prepared myself for it, I'm nowhere close. But its always been like that with him.
Well I been thinking Tbout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead
Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen
10.34: Flinders Street Station
I'm lookin' down the tracks
Uniformed man askin' am I paid up
Why would I wanna be that?
'Cause every once in a while
You think about if your gonna get yourself together
You should be happy just to be alive
And just because you just don't feel like comin' home
Don't mean that you'll never arrive
Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen
Yeah gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
Take control
Don't be afraid of me
I feel like so much has gone on but its all flown by.
Somehow it feels blank like this journal has been.
So, right now, I'm pretty much sick of most the things going on. But when aren't I?
Half of me feels like this is the best time of my life right now, its only going to get better, and I know I'm going to be taken care of. Because I Love Him.
The other half feels like living isn't even worth the other half.(but it totally is.) It might seem like doubt, its not, its just hard to sit here and take. I've only got two more years, and I can finally get out of here. Put the past, you know, in the past.
I guess I just miss my dad a great deal lately. With everything going on now, and my birthday coming up, its just so much harder. But it seems like things will get better when I'm older and I can see of him more. I also feel like i'm losing time to spend. With him its like i couldn't be surprised if he died tomorrow. As much as I think I've prepared myself for it, I'm nowhere close. But its always been like that with him.
Well I been thinking Tbout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead
Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen
10.34: Flinders Street Station
I'm lookin' down the tracks
Uniformed man askin' am I paid up
Why would I wanna be that?
'Cause every once in a while
You think about if your gonna get yourself together
You should be happy just to be alive
And just because you just don't feel like comin' home
Don't mean that you'll never arrive
Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen
Yeah gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah it's hard
If you had have only seen
Take control
Don't be afraid of me