one more week.
i really need this thanksgiving break.
i just need a break from being here and a break from driving myself crazy.
i've had a bad dream about opera scenes auditions every night for the last 3 days.
and i know that sounds so silly
but i walked out of the opera and i was instantly in a bad mood
not because of the opera...it was so great and everyone was fabulous
but because i'm so scared i'm going to get sick.
it's such a trivial thing to want so badly but, whatever that's how i feel.
i just want to come back from this break with all the things that are up in the air...finalized.
i want to resolve things, and i want them to be settled.
i want to know that with a week away, i'll be proved wrong
and that the friends that i'm so unsure about right now
we'll prove to be true.
things are so weird right now, i don't even know.
i need someone to let me know that it's going to be okay.
i just need a break from being here and a break from driving myself crazy.
i've had a bad dream about opera scenes auditions every night for the last 3 days.
and i know that sounds so silly
but i walked out of the opera and i was instantly in a bad mood
not because of the opera...it was so great and everyone was fabulous
but because i'm so scared i'm going to get sick.
it's such a trivial thing to want so badly but, whatever that's how i feel.
i just want to come back from this break with all the things that are up in the air...finalized.
i want to resolve things, and i want them to be settled.
i want to know that with a week away, i'll be proved wrong
and that the friends that i'm so unsure about right now
we'll prove to be true.
things are so weird right now, i don't even know.
i need someone to let me know that it's going to be okay.