December 17th, 2020
" Thinking in Systems" talks a lot about resilience. Resilence is the ability of the system to self-heal and adapt. Resilience is hard to measure. To test it, the system should be placed under critical conditions. People rarely do that.
This week, we could fully feel the resilience of our small system named "a family of two functional aduts, a first-grader and a toddler" running thin. My training on Mon and Tue put such a strain on us that now we adults are literally zombies, and it's only Thursday. This morning, my son complained about a pain in his knee. It can just be a fluke, but knees are tricky, it may turn out to be something that merits a visit to a doctor. The tiredness I felt at this thought was overwhelming. There is no more resilience left in the system to amortize more shit. I can hear structures groan, nearing the snapping point.
The thing that infuriates me is that lots of pressure comes from doing complete and utter crap. The school requirements are insane, the new COVID screening requirements make the school look good. And don't even get me started on work.
We'll survive. But that's what we doing currently. Surviving.
I hate survival mode.
This week, we could fully feel the resilience of our small system named "a family of two functional aduts, a first-grader and a toddler" running thin. My training on Mon and Tue put such a strain on us that now we adults are literally zombies, and it's only Thursday. This morning, my son complained about a pain in his knee. It can just be a fluke, but knees are tricky, it may turn out to be something that merits a visit to a doctor. The tiredness I felt at this thought was overwhelming. There is no more resilience left in the system to amortize more shit. I can hear structures groan, nearing the snapping point.
The thing that infuriates me is that lots of pressure comes from doing complete and utter crap. The school requirements are insane, the new COVID screening requirements make the school look good. And don't even get me started on work.
We'll survive. But that's what we doing currently. Surviving.
I hate survival mode.